hi there Cordelia-Mary
im so sorry to hear about
your diagnosis as well...I love Nanners' idea about
a pet! my mom works with a lady that is in a wheelchair (this lady is a teacher -- a really good one!) and she has one of those special help dogs. they're really amazing...he's ridiculously smart and does stuff like
opens that door for her and gets the phone when its ringing! plus hes adorable and loves her to pieces...
She got him for free too because of whatever it is that she has...sorry i forget what it is, but she's completely functional other than being in a wheelchair...i'll ask my mom about
it if you want and see if there's something you could apply for to get one too :) they get along with cats too because they're really really well trained.
I know that panicy feeling at night..but i promise it gets better. I think everybody is right when they say you should speak to your doctor, sometimes we just need a little extra help :)
I used to also get that feeling where i thought i wanted to die...well it's not so much wanting to die as it is not wanting to live the way life was going...but please trust me - it's going to be okay. Everything always gets better. any adjustment is hard especially adjusting to being in a wheelchair but you will adjust to it and it wont always be such a horrifying idea to you. it just takes time hunny, but you'll get there.
sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
<3 <3 <3
when you feel like you're done, and the darkness has won, babe you're not lost ...when you're worlds crashing down and you cannot bare the cross, baby you're not lost.