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Date Joined Mar 2009
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   Posted 7/21/2009 8:50 PM (GMT -7)   
Things have been pretty good for me lately. But today anxiety is really high. Every little ache, pain , discomfort has bothered me.

I'm at the point I would rather have the panic attack and get it over with. I turely hate days like this. To me they are worse then dealing with the panic attack and getting it over with. I hate being on edge. Sitting here waiting for something to happen.

It started earlier today. My dog had to have surgery again last Thursday. Well some how she hurt her foot/leg last night. Because of that I have had to pick her up and set her outside. Well that started the anxiety. So since 8am I've been on edge. Just feeling totally yucky. After I got her back inside I felt like I was going to pass out. Of course I didn't but I sure felt like I was going to.
I had to put a t-shirt on her so I couldn't see the stitches. I just don't handle this stuff well at all.

It didn't help that hubby was 1hour late from work. He is never more then 3-5 minutes late. And if he is going to be later then that he leaves me an email or calls. This time he did neither. And I freaked out. I called his phone and emailed. Didn't get an answer. It was a horrible hour for me. Screaming inside going crazy. I couldn't "show" I was upset since my 9 year old son was home. So I sat on the couch cross stitching and staring out the window waiting. UGGG is was horrible.

I need some place to go run and hide from the way I'm feeling. Nothing has totally worked yet to distract me. Gotta give Snickers her antibiotics in 15 minutes then I'm gonna try my best to get a few hours sleep.

Wish me luck!

Take Care

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   Posted 7/21/2009 9:45 PM (GMT -7)   
good luck cary-ann!
im falling asleep as i type so i gotta keep this short but i certainly know what you mean about those "edgy" days...but hey you made it through! and it sounds like you didnt have a panic attack after all? or did you during that hour?? what i've found is that the more "edgy" days i have where i dont panic, the less anxious i feel on those days....anyways i really hope tomorrow goes better for ya!!!!
sweet dreams!
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   Posted 7/22/2009 5:54 AM (GMT -7)   
I hope you were able to get a good nights sleep and shake off this anxiety. Sounds like you did a really good job in fighting it off. Hope today is a better day for you.

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   Posted 7/22/2009 6:40 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks Ladies

Well we had a storm blow in and my son got scared. Which I don't blame him it was a really big thunderstorm. So after posting I had to shut down the computers, light some candles, and lock up the outdoor dogs up inside the house. They have dogie houses but we don't like them outside in any type of extereme weather. The big dog hates coming in side. Hates it. But we drag her in anyway. Our area is known to have some instances of running water. And I would hate for her to try and sleep in it.

Then decided I would teach my son some old game of cards. So we sat on the floor and played war, slap jack, and Uno. He beat me at war, and slap jack. And that was without letting him win. Teaching him how to play cards eased my anxiety and I was able to crash at about 1am.

Never did go into a panic attack. Just major anxiety yesterday. After about 3 weeks of things being pretty easy. Small panic attacks here and there. Nothing major. I can handle the panic attacks better then I can with the anxiety flares and goes no where. I would rather have the panic attacks and get it over with then have the high anxiety. Where you just sit and wait for something to happen. Its really hard to explain. But I hate it.

Thanks for the kind words. I am much better today. Hopefully my mom makes it back from her trip soon. I'm missing my kids and having her around.

Take Care

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Date Joined Feb 2009
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   Posted 7/22/2009 9:55 AM (GMT -7)   
Allestaria - I know what you mean about preferring to have the panic attack! At least you know that the attack, although awful, will go away and be done with. The constantly "on edge" feeling, wondering when you're going to freak out or whatever is awful and just wreaks havoc on the day. I'm glad to hear that teaching your son the card games helped ease your anxiety, sometimes being busy and occupied helps distract just enough to allow all those anxious feelings to go to the backburner and be a little more tolerable! I hope you are feeling better today! Sounds like your pet situation is adding to your stress, I know when mine aren't feeling good it always puts me on edge since I don't know exactly what is wrong or how I can help them feel better!
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