You have received some great advice already, but I had a few thoughts myself. When you see you PCP about
medication to take daily, can you explain your future conceiving hopes with the doctor and see if there is something you can take during pregnancy. It sounds to me that you are just one of the folks that needs to stay on medication all the time to keep the anxiety in check.
Try to stay in the moment and not let your health anxiety get ahold of you. Do not search or google anything, that will just cause more anxiety. The medication mentioned above by Jazzy in the US is the equilvalent of Valium not Xanax. Maybe ask you doc also about
something other than Xanax to quiet your panics attacks.
Gail*Nanners* Co-Moderator for Crohns Disease and Anxiety/Panic Forum
Been living with Crohn's Disease for 33 years. Currently on Asacol, Prilosec, Estrace, Prinivil, Diltiazem, Percoset prn for pain, Zofran, Phenergan, Probiotics, Calcium w/Vit D, and Xanax as needed for my anxiety. Resections in 2002 and 2005. Also diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Osteoarthritis, and Anxiety. Currently my Crohns is in remission, but my joints are going crazy!
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