Georgie Girl’s comment about her symptoms feeling like getting a phone call about an unknown tragedy befalling her husband and son, reminded me of a couple incidents in my life. And since we are talking about symptoms I hope this is on topic. If not, I will delete or move this post if needed.
I did get that phone call. My husband and son were in a terrible wreck. Their conditions unknown and I needed to meet the ambulance at X Hospital. After the initial strike of terror when the call came. My brain/body did the unexpected.
I had to drive myself a long way to the hospital, driving being a panic attack trigger for me. I had to deal with two loved ones going to different hospitals and both undergoing surgery, feeling helpless and out of control of a situation being a panic attack trigger for me. I had to make a LONG drive when my husband was sent to a distant hospital for advanced emergency trmt, going outside of my comfort zone perimeter being a panic attack trigger for me. A relative drove me, but I was not close with this relative and did not feel emotionally safe with him. We drove the entire trip in a blinding rainstorm, traveling and bad road conditions being another panic attack trigger for me. I had to spend over a week in an unfamiliar city, alone. Again, another panic attack trigger for me.
And yet, through it all, I remained calm and was able to think clearly and function normally. So totally out of character for me it has baffled me ever since. This also happened when a loved one unexpectedly died and at the time I was suffering from severe agoraphobia (I was totally housebound) and yet my body/brain did it again and I could attend the viewings, funeral and burial without one single thought about moi (me)and without one single symptom (that is after the shock of the initial phone call wore off).
The reason I bring this up is because I know how impossible it is to just shut off panic symptoms. And yet my mind/body did it, quickly and easily twice. I wish I knew more psychology to understand this and wonder how it might help those of us in some way.
I find it very intriguing that my mind/body that has so viciously turned on me multiple times in my life that at these two times, The Usual Suspects (symptoms) never surfaced. For some reason when it involved someone else and not just me it changed my body’s response completely.
I know we are all different and what happens to one may certainly not be the case for another. But I know what I experienced has been the case for some others too, and I wanted to say to you all-- Have hope! And don’t worry yourself to death over “If I panic this bad riding in an elevator, what will my symptoms be like if I have to deal with X tragedy of a loved one?” (Again, I hope this was not off topic)
Thank you for listening, Spinnaker
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