Hi guys, those of you who know me are aware that i suffer from agoraphobia as well as OCD on top of the panic disorder. I work full time and my comfort zone is about 3 hours north, south, east, west from my home. any further and i freak out. (especially if there are crowds!)
Anyway a close friend just rang very last minute to invite me to a birthday afternoon tea tomorrow- super short notice and i hate having to drive somewhere i havent been before. It also can take me hours to pick an outfit- thats where my compulsion kicks in and i can become quite obsessive. This is also largely due to my Zoloft related weight gain & the self loathing i have for my body.
I thought about not going as i am still unwell with a pretty harsh sinus infection & bronchitis- but then decided that if i dont go, im letting my irrational fears win.
Ive been going out socially more and more- parties, dinners, weddings- you name it, i make myself go, as i am an extrovert and many people are not even aware i have an issue being away from my hometown.
So the point is, im going tomorrow, and i will enjoy myself. Im 29 and refuse to live as a recluse (which is tempting- cos of the Fibro etc, i spend alot of time in bed) but to hell with it. My friend will only be turning 30 once.
Lets challenge our fears, and take back some control of our lives!
Much love to you all,
Co-Moderator Anxiety & Panic- Depression
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
-DX:Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Sinusitis, TMJ, Endometriosis,PCOS, Reactive Arthritis, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, OCD, Seasonal Mood Disorder. GERD, IBS.
-Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Prescription pain meds/anti inflammatories.
-Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
-Age:29. AP first DX @ 10. Fibro etc DX @14.