Chi I am so sorry you are battling with these negative thoughts- Im going to give you a link to an online CBT program which can help give you the necessary tools to start taking your life back. Its free, you can do it at your own pace and you can potentially learn how to understand and control irrational fears:
Free CBT Online/MoodGYM
All the best,
Co-Moderator Anxiety & Panic- Depression
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
-DX:Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Sinusitis, TMJ, Endometriosis,PCOS, Reactive Arthritis, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, OCD, Seasonal Mood Disorder. GERD, IBS.
-Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Prescription pain meds/anti inflammatories.
-Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
-Age:29. AP first DX @ 10. Fibro etc DX @14.