Ok, so basically I was so scared of getting addicted to xanax and building a tolerance towards it that I would take days off and during these days off I would drink too much. Some crap happened and I got a huge red flag when I ended up sexually harrassing someone. Thank God I didn't get into serious trouble. I could have gotten in serious trouble with my college. So, my plan is to abstain from drinking alcohol/partying cold turkey. No more alcohol for me because I just can't handle it anymore. I realize that it's getting worse and I need to stop before something bad happens.
I might get put on new medication because I feel that the zoloft isn't affective much anymore although I'm not having panic attacks, I still have good days and really crapty days where I have bad anxiety.
I'm taking 1.25 mgs of xanax nightly to help me sleep because I do have insomnia. I'm a very hyper person. I'm going to start tapering down because I think that 1.25 is too much and I don't want to get to the point where I'm taking 2 or 3 mgs daily. So, tonight I'm quitting alcohol for good and tapering town to 1 mg. I think I can do it. If I get tolerant towards the xanax, I'm going to let my doctor know. I think zoloft is just making my insomnia worse, so I'll have to talk to him about that.
Wish me luck! I'm going to do the best I can to improve myself before I hit bottom.
"Getting an idea should be like sitting down on a pin; it should make you jump up and do something." -E. L. Simpson
General Anxiety Disorder (GAD) with Agoraphobia
Zoloft (100 mgs) daily
Trazadone (50 mgs) nightly
Xanax (1.25 mgs) as needed at night