Well its nearly 3am and I cant sleep, just getting my thoughts down.
I've just about got rid of all my symptoms of anxiety, its taken 3 and half months, only thing left to shift is my knot in the throat and swallowing problems. Now I don't like going to the dentist at the best of times as most people don't but I am really worried about going this morning (11am)
The NHS have put 3 procedures into one slot as its cheaper (£198 instead of £400!) for the patient but this means my treatment is for a whole 60 mins!!
How on earth Im going to keep my mouth open for that long is beyond me. Also considering im having a nerve removal, 2 crowns and a filling Im not sure if I cant go through with it.
I know I may be catastrophic thinking, but with my swallowing issues Im not sure how Im going to cope, I can choke on my own saliva sometimes if Im really stressed so you can imagine what thoughts are going round in my mind!
As for the injections, Im wondering if I will have to have 3 lots!! One top and two for the bottom.
I think its too much to ask someone to sit there an hour, but for someone suffering from anxiety already...
Ok I think I may wuss out on this occasion opting for just the one procedure. Im imagining me sitting in the chair gasping to swallow. If they don't suck all the water out from the back of my throat Ill gag lol!!!
I told my CBT therapist about it and even she said she would wuss out. My husband told me hes not paying for any extra treatment If I wuss out. Oh well...if thats the case they will have to rot !!!
I really should go back to bed haha..