I just saw my therapist yesterday and I am sorry that you do not feel a therapist could help you as they are trained to help people with mental health issues much more so than your PCP generally.
OCD involves having both obsessions and compulsions. A person with OCD may sometimes have one or the other.Common obsessions are:
contamination fears of germs, dirt, etc., imagining having harmed oneself or others, imagining losing control or having aggressive urges, intrusive sexual thoughts or urges, excessive religious or moral doubt, forbidden thoughts, a need to have things "just so," and a need to tell, ask, or confess. Common compulsions are: washing, repeating, checking, touching, and counting.
OCD symptoms can occur in people of all ages. Not all Obsessive-Compulsive behaviors represent an illness. Some rituals (e.g., bedtime songs, religious practices) are a welcome part of daily life. Normal worries, such as contamination fears, may increase during times of stress, such as when someone in the family is sick or dying. Only when symptoms persist, make no sense, cause much distress, or interfere with functioning do they need clinical attention. Please remember I am not a professional
but IMHO your sx sound more like anticipatory anxiety which I have lived with for many years along with my depression.
An infinite number of human experiences cause normal anticipatory anxiety. Many times we experience anxiety in anticipation of doing something new or before completion of a major task or life event. Life offers us the experience of many anxiety-provoking “firsts” -- new places was the example you gave of what sets off your anxiety.
CBT therapy is one of the highly recommend ways to learn to deal with your anxiety. There is a free online version that you can take right from the comfort of your own home.
Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughtsV
cause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations,
and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to feel / act better even if the situation does not change.
Here is the link for the] http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome
I hope this helps you in some small way.Gentle Hugs, Kitt