Apologies if this is not an appropriate subject for this site---if it isn't,if anyone can recommend a source of help for me(I'm in the UK),I'd be very grateful.
I have a serious anxiety/depression problem,and have had lots of support from this site in the past. I'm just emerging from a very bad phase,but now have another stress.My sister has had mental health issues since adolescence,and I have usually been the one to offer her support.We both suffered an abusive childhood,but she is especially damaged.Has had a series of relationships which have been both physically and mentally abusive,
She has always used alcohol(and sometimes drugs),as a means of coping,and has had spells in psychiatric hospitals,but she has difficulty in seeing herself as worthy of help,and tends instead to take on a caring role with her fellow patients,refusing to discuss her own past.
The irony of all this is that I am a qualified psychiatric nurse,and also a social worker---I actually specialised in addiction,so I know a bit about my sister's problems from both sides of the fence,as a helper,but also a patient.I just seem to have held it together a bit better,and I've had the support of a wonderful husband,and a good Dr. Things have deteriorated recently----we have always been so close,but last week she rang me,very drunk,talking of how we didn't deserve the abuse we suffered,and accusing me of not keeping in touch with her(I write regularly,and send surprise presents often).This has affected me very badly---my husband has always loved and supported me through my periods of illness,but I fear for him,as I now seem to be spiralling downwards from anxiety to serious depression again.
There are help groups for the relatives of alcoholics,and I spoke to someone involved in this,but my current anxiety levels are so high that I couldn't attend a group at present.I feel a need to withdraw from my sister(on the phone,at any rate)but this makes me feel so sad and guilty.
Apologies for the length of this post,also if it isn't appropriate.How can I maintain my mental health in the face of what is a terrible tragedy?
Thank you for listening.