need to get some things off my chest..possible anxiety?

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Date Joined Oct 2008
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   Posted 10/18/2009 10:02 AM (GMT -7)   
hey everyone. i'm new to the anxiety forum.
basically what's going on w/ me is that i'm in my third year of college & i absolutely hate the school i attend. in the past, i haven't had much choice because my parents are paying a large fraction of my tuition and have not allowed me to transfer (don't know why..i think maybe they see it as a failure?)..anyway.. they recently moved very far away and finally said that they would let me transfer to school close to their city. thing is, schools around there arent accepting transfer applications for next semester so i have to stick out until may..& i'm not sure that i can.
i have "friends" here but nobody that i truly feel like i can talk to & be myself around. i also have roommates who seem to have no respect for me. i can't get enough sleep at night bc they don't care to be quiet when i'm sleeping & they also don't care to be quiet when i'm studying. they invite multiple people over without even so much as giving me a heads up. i also frequently get kicked out of rooms in our apartment (including my own) bc they're best friends & i'm just the girl they were kind of friends with & picked to live w/ bc they needed a 4th its always those 3 against me. when i do stick up for myself it gets worse & they try & make me feel guilty..its 3 against 1. so a lot of times i just comply to what they want bc i don't want the subtle abuse.
i really feel like i can't make it through the rest of the year.... i cry almost every day & have had tension headaches about 6 days a week since school started in mid-august. i feel like my grades are going to suffer dramatically (its causing me a lot of difficulty w/ concentration), i'll have some sort of mental breakdown, i'm going to get really sick, etc...i just dont think i can stand being here any longer. ive been trying to take st johns wort but bc of my acid reflux & ibs issues i can only take it on "good" days otherwise it will upset my stomach even more. im thinking about when i go home for thanksgiving break to ask my mom to make an appointment for me to talk to someone about anxiety meds for the rest of the school year (even when i don't have a lot of school work to do, i feel like i can NEVER relax). my parents know my unhappiness but theyre not accepting of mental health problems & i think will see me as a failure bc of im really hesitant but i feel like i need something.

sorry this is so long..but i have no one else to tell this to that i think will understand. also..any advice for anxiety meds? i heard that xanax can knock people out which is not what i want..i want to be able to relax but still be able to function with it as i need to do homework, etc.

thanks to everyone who read this.. i know its practically a book.

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   Posted 10/18/2009 3:58 PM (GMT -7)   


Hello and welcome to the Anxiety and Panic Forum. 

Have you seen a psychologist about this? It sounds like there are a lot of maladaptive thought processes going on that need 'ironing out'. I dont think changing the situation is going to help you at the moment, but rather changing how you see it.

I sense that you have been troubled for some time and hope that when you are home for Thanksgiving you do see your Physician to see if there is anything physical going on with you.  If not then please do consider getting into therapy of some sort. 

Stick with us and know we care.

Gentle Hugs



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