I'm doing well anxiety wise, a little tiny bit anxious in the mornings sometimes, but nothing I can't handle and it doesn't last long. I'm still really missing Buster, it's much harder without him here than I ever imagined, and spending the majority of my time alone really doesn't help. My husband is on second shift, and is gone about 12 hours a day, and my daughter works 6 days a week, various hours, but usually late afternoon to late at night as well, so I'm home alone with my thoughts and lonliness way too much! So, I'm trying to just get through this. I know it seems crazy that I'm having such a difficult time with the loss of a dog, but he was my world, truly my best friend and I really do feel lost without him here. In time I hope this will get easier. This weekend, I'll be spending my first night completely alone in over 12 years and am really dreading it. My husband will be hunting and my daughter has plans, so I'll be here just me. It never used to bother me when Buster was here, but now I guess we'll just have to see how it goes...cross your fingers everyone!
I've gotten back to studying for the national medical coding exam. I took the class last Jan-May, and was supposed to take the test on June 19th, but then my sweet Buster died and I just couldn't handle it. So I'm starting over with the reading and studying and preparing to take it, hopefully, in Jan. or Feb. It's so much to learn, and very complicated, but honestly it's just what I need to keep busy and try to move forward.
Yesterday, I took a huge step, I drove the car alone. I was following my husband, taking our camper back over to the storage area where we keep it for the winter. I haven't driven alone in years and...I loved every minute of it! My daughter is adding me to her cell phone plan, so I'll have a phone to take with me when I get out and drive...when there's a car available...we only have two cars and I told you my families schedules, so it isn't always easy. I think having a cell phone will make me feel more comfortable, just in case I need a little pep talk or get anxious and want to talk to someone. I was just so shocked that driving over there was so easy...hopefully it wasn't just beginners luck, but I'll just handle whatever comes.
Glad to see that those who have posted are doing well, and I hope more will post updates as well. Happy Birthday Melodee...you share a birthday with my husband, his is tomorrow too. Hope you have a great day!