Posted 11/20/2009 10:51 AM (GMT -6)
Hi, everyone. I thought I would just give you an update on how I am doing ever since I posted "Taking Control of My Anxiety!!!". It's been four days I believe.. going on five, and I have only had a few bouts with anxiety, and they were very minor. However, yesterday, I had derealization for large chunks of the day, and I was very confused about it, but I seemingly didn't have anxiety yesterday, but I guess I had an underlying anxiety that I didn't realize.
Today, my mom and I were watching the Top Whatever Countdown, and as I watched the videos I became more and more disgusted. All the women are just half naked and dancing all nasty, and other things that I won't post on here, because it'll just get edited by a Moderator, lol! Anyways, I feel like I was overanalyzing, because is it really that awful compared to what it used to be, I mean really?
I honestly don't think it is. But it is something that's hard to deal with. I mean I looooove music, and I appreciate all forms of dance as an art, and alot of the women sing well, move well, and are beautiful creatures on this planet. But for some reason it's like they dumb themselves down and look like.. **********s to make some cash.
I dunno, I suppose I am just letting society get to me, and I am extrememly worried about the future generations as they are learning more sexual things and what I would consider personally, "Immoral" things at an earlier age. I want to be able to raise a child and feel comfortable in doing so, and feel like they aren't going to be lead astray following society.
I suppose I am just being overanalytical today, but it's something that is giving me a bit of anxiety today, and I just hope I can get my mind off of it and look for a more positive outlook on the world, because I really don't think it's as bad as most people make it out to be. Really, in turn, I am allowing myself to be lead astray by listening to the negative politics and messages sent now about how bad the world is.
Anyways, so everyone know, I am doing rather well lately, and I wish all of you the best of luck!
Much love and God Bless.