Mood is very weird. What is this?

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   Posted 11/28/2009 2:05 PM (GMT -7)   
I tried Abilify for 2 days and wasn't able to sleep more than 2 hrs. So I went off it and back on the med it was replacing (Seroquel). I couldn't ask my doc about anything b/c this happened on Thurs. (and of course no one gets sick on holidays...but that's another HUGE rant...) I slept more but I've noticed my thoughts are back and forth b/t hopeful/fine to anxious/scared-b/c-I-can't-stop-the-hopeless-feeling. Now I can't see this being b/c of Abilify since I was on .5 for only 2 days.

My diagnosis has been depression/panic since I was 14 (I'm 32 now). I think of bipolar but isn't that feeling very happy and then very sad? I never feel VERY happy.
Also this change can be w/in a 5 min. timeframe.

So how do you know if this is your brain chemistry (not in your control) or not? And when I get scared, I get very scared. You know that feeling where you're scared out of your head and don't see any way out and nothing you do that you like, helps? Another way to say it is doing things to get you out of that black hole (taking a walk, breathing deeply, thinking good thoughts) does nothing. Thing is, if it's NOT in my control (my brain) that scares me too b/c it means my meds aren't working. If it IS in my control, I still can't get out of it. Another scary thing is that there's no scientific way to TELL THE DIFFERENCE! The docs just guess, and that's scary in itself.

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   Posted 11/28/2009 4:57 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey there,

Most health professionals today consider depression and anxiety as a chronic illness that requires long-term treatment, much like diabetes or high blood pressure.

It's not known specifically what causes depression. As with many mental illnesses, it's thought that a variety of biochemical, genetic and environmental factors may cause depression and anxiety.
Biochemical. Some evidence from high-tech imaging studies indicates that people with depression/anxiety have physical changes in their brains. The significance of these changes is still uncertain but may eventually help pinpoint causes. The naturally occurring brain chemicals called neurotransmitters, which are linked to mood, also may play a role in depression. Hormonal imbalances also could be a culprit.
Genes. Some studies show that depression is more common in people whose biological family members also have the condition. Researchers are trying to find genes that may be involved in causing depression.
I have a family history of anxiety and depression.

Environment. Environment is also thought to play a causal role in some way. Environmental causes are situations in your life that are difficult to cope with, such as the loss of a loved one, financial problems and high stress.
You may be interested in trying to relieve symptoms with complementary or alternative medicine strategies. These include nutritional and dietary supplements and mind-body techniques. I would try to work out a plan with your physician that combines the best of both alternative and traditional treatments.

Take care and please know you are not alone in your feelings.

Gentle Hugs


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   Posted 11/29/2009 4:15 AM (GMT -7)   

You have had some great info from kitt. I would just like to say that I can really relate to your post as I am going through the same at the moment. I take Seroquel as well and also take escitalopram to help with my GAD and depression, With me I found that I had begun to rely on medication to make me better and was swapping between meds to find that magic combo that would take all my anxiety & depression away. My psychiatrist pointed this out to me and said that medications are just there to help ease your symptoms and should be used as a platform for you to work on changes which will help things to improve and unfortunately that would be a slow process in my case as I have suffered with these issues for most of my life. I get frustrated as I am trying my best to do things which will help with my anxiety/depression but still suffer with these problems so know focus on small steps each day and keep a log were I right down just one positive a day, I now know it is going to take a while but it will be worth it. I hope things start to improve for you soon and keep posting here and we can support you through this rough time.

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   Posted 11/29/2009 9:50 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm glad you all responded. Kitt--yes I do know that it (may) involve all those things...but they're never SURE. I know when i describe some things that I feel, my doc is just like **huh??** and tries to say it in a way she knows, starting with "so sort of like xyz is making abc do 123?" And I say, "well, no." So she bases what she gives me on what she thinks it is or interprets it as, and I never feel she understands what I'm saying.

I have no family history of anything that I know of. I just got lucky...

And events may have done something but there was no even just prior to when all this initially started in 1991. My dad has always gotten on my nerves b/c he is a yeller and has a terrible temper but no specific event happened. I just started feeling weird.

And if it's JUST an eviron. factor, then there's a better chance of you getting off the meds b/c it's not some random thing in your brain that started freaking out, which you can't control. That's not the case w/me so I may never get off it. If it is a chemical thing that happened out of nowhere, then that problem will be there as soon as the meds stop, theoretically.

And my doc doesn't really know of alternative's like that doesn't count, which pisses me off to no end. I called an alt. medical doc and a first session is OVER $500...I think not. Doctors should read up on that b/c I think much of it is legit, and saving me $500. Also, you never know what alt. doc to go to or if they're just ripping you off.

And bee, I dont know what i can change. I feel like if I succeed in getting my mind off what is happening, it just masks it, not helps it. As soon as you finish doing the task that gets your mind off it, the feelings come back, making it seem that changing things yourself has nothing to do with it.
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