Really. This tumultuous roller coaster never ends! I've had quite the week my friends.
First, my car completely pooped out. Got it fixed but to the tune of $600...right before Christmas. Boo-hoo :(
Second, went to my couples counseling on Monday night and to say it was disappointing and disastrous would be about accurate.
My boyfriend and I paid $120 for essentially an hour-long sales pitch about this woman's self-awareness weekend,which costs $1200 a pop. She touts it as being a "cure all" the only way to overcome any of your pain and emotional issues and that in 2 days, you receive the equivalent of 5 years of counseling. According to this lady, you HAVE to go to this weekend (along with 12 other individuals) in order to overcome your inner 5 year olds. You spend a lot of time beating on bags with bats to vent anger and cry to vent sadness.
After that off-putting experience, to just add insult to injury, she proceeded to denounce the efficacy and effectiveness of talk therapy! Ack! I've been spending so much time convincing my BF that talk therapy is a good thing for us as a couple and for him individually. I wanted to punch her!
Then, after about 10 minutes of chatting with her about my major stress producing issues, IBS being one of them, she told me that she can "cure" my IBS. I almost walked out. I have been to a million doctors it seems like and no one ever says cure. The quacks that claim they can cure things are snake oil salesmen, in my opinion.
Anyhoo, when I disagreed with her and tried to get our focus shifted back to my relationship issues, she proceeded to spend the next 20 minutes trying to convince me that IBS, as well as other physical ailments, are all the product of repressed feelings and emotional imbalance. I seriously got ready to walk out. I was so hurt and angry. I told her so and then she quickly back pedalled saying she wasn't trying to argue that IBS was all in my head, however, it sure sounded like that was what her position was.
Anyway, it was an awful experience and quite the waste of money. We won't be going back. I always tell my friends, never pick your lawyer from the phone book. I guess the same holds true for therapists. We found her in a local Healing Arts booklet given to me by a naturopathic doctor.
Lastly, I found out yesterday my BF is getting a lateral transfer within his firm to their LA office! I am very excited. However, he starts Feb 15!! I am in no financial shape to simply quit my job and go. He's not in any shape to take care of me. So, I'll have to really buckle down and try to find something. I'm terrified. I still don't know whether I want to pursue law. 90% of my gut says no. It's wreaking havoc on my mental and physical health. But, I don't know what else to do. I've got ideas, but it just seems so overwhelming.
Any thoughts? Inspiration? Ideas?
My Bachelor's degree is a BS in Business Admin, with my concentration in Marketing. I think getting back into Marketing or PR would be amazing in the LA area!
Also, considering getting into retail management. I did it throughout college. I could work my way up in a good company.
Finally, considering just getting some retail job of any kind and getting my associate's degree in nursing. After all the hell I've been through with my own health, I really think I could use my experiences and wisdom to empathize with and help others in pain. Any nurses able to weigh in?
Thanks. Sorry for the long rambling post.
28 year old female
Dx: IBS-D - 2004
GAD - 2008
Meds: .5- 1mg Klonopin as needed & 37.5 mg Effexor XR