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Date Joined Dec 2009
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   Posted 12/24/2009 4:57 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey everyone,

My name is Fred, I'm 19 years old. Recently I had a 5-month long job trip to the United States, during which I was under some stress from work, and the stress of being in a new city by my own at 18 years old.

When I came back to my home city during the flight I started having a very weird thing. When I was in the transition from awake to going asleep, I would experience scary thoughts. But I wasn't fully awake or fully asleep, I was mildly conscious, so I would think I was going crazy having crazy thoughts. It's a very weird thing. I had a stressful flight, but was eating well and not overly anxious, except for the times when I was trying to fall asleep.

2 days after the flight I started growing more anxious. After being 4 months away, many things, like going out with my friends, hanging out with my family, felt "weird". 3 days ago I started getting really anxious. I couldn't concentrate, and at times I would feel slightly depersonalized / surreal. I also struggled with concentrating and recalling certain things, which grew me more anxious. I never had the kind of panic attack when your heart races or your chest hurts. If I do have some sort of panic attack, then it's strictly emotional.

My worries are usually about going crazy or losing my cognitive skills, or about going insane and committing suicide and leaving my family behind.
Also worth noticing is that I've been slowly losing my appetite. I eat, but much less than I used to.

Is it possible that all of this is strictly related to my sleep problem? In the mornings, as soon as I wake up, I feel completely tired. I'm not resting at all. Most of the times I try to fall asleep I get into that semi-conscious state which makes me anxious.

Also, another of my worries is that this anxiety won't go away and they'll put me on meds :(

I've always been healthy and never had a serious addiction. I did smoke cigarettes  but I don't miss it at all. I smoked cigarettes for the sake of it, Do you think this is something that can go away without seeking treatment? I recall at some points of my life having some mild depression / hypochondria stages that would last 4-5 days, and then would go away.

Thanks everyone!
Edit:  I am sorry but I removed your comments re the use of illicit drugs as it is not allowed in the forum.
1. No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence. (ie. illicit drug use or exchange, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm).  

Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 12/25/2009 6:50:02 AM (GMT-7)

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Date Joined Dec 2009
Total Posts : 3
   Posted 12/24/2009 5:01 PM (GMT -7)   
Btw, to summarize, this whole thing started last friday. Last friday was the flight during which I experienced the weird sleeping thing. The next day was mostly fine, slightly less hungry and sleeping was still really weird. The next day I was fine but I was pretty anxious during some times of the day, with stupid concerns, and slightly less hungry. The next day I got really anxious during long periods of time and my appetite decreased.. I also had problems concentrating and felt overwhelmed at times. And today I also got really bad sleep and I woke up in fear because of a *massive* thunder.

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Date Joined Oct 2009
Total Posts : 163
   Posted 12/24/2009 11:07 PM (GMT -7)   
Pretty much the same thing happened to me, and is still happening. It's most likely caused from the use of an illegal substance. I'm not just saying that either. Look it up, its depersonalization/derealization caused from it. Generally it lasts a few months and goes away for people who develop dissociative feelings from using illegal drugs. Its been four months perhaps for me, and it's gotten significantly better, but still persists. For instance, last week I was perfectly normal again the whole week. Then one night, BAM! I almost rushed myself to the ER thinking I was losing my mind. I didn't go to sleep till 6am the following morning. Now its been a few days and its slowly diminishing. It is completely overcomeable, but I would suggest going to your doctor, or seeing therapist. A doctor will likely try to put you on medication, which I think personally won't help IF it's induced from drugs. Although, it could. I know for me, I reacted badly. There are many many people who have the same exact issue and the medication turned their lives around. Since Sunday I went from 155 pounds to 135 pounds. My appetite has definitely decreased, and I get alot more anxious at night and as I am trying to get to sleep. My biggest fears is losing my mind and without realizing what I am doing. You can and will get better, I promise you that. Also, I am 18 years old. If you need to talk feel free to look at my information on here.

Take care :)
Edit:  I am sorry I had to remove parts of your post and reworded your post in a few places.
Please remember the to review the rules:
1. No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence. (ie. illicit drug use or exchange, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm). 
Thank you in advance for your understanding.

Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 12/25/2009 6:56:21 AM (GMT-7)

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   Posted 12/25/2009 7:01 AM (GMT -7)   

Good Morning and welcome to HealingWell. I am sorry for the edit of your post but please do review the rules and guidelines.

It feels to me like you would do well by choosing to see your physician and telling him everything that has been going on with you including your drug use.

We are here to support you however we are not professionals and your post makes me think you would benefit from professional help right now.

Medications can be a good thing so do not close your mind to refusing medications if you need them. Many people benefit from a combination of medications, therapy and life style changes.

Take care and do stick with us,


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   Posted 12/25/2009 11:18 AM (GMT -7)   
Just wanting to welcone you...Kitt has given great input as always..stay well..lyn
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