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Date Joined Jan 2010
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   Posted 1/10/2010 10:08 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello everyone!

I am just wondering if anyone has had to deal with medical conditions that people don't really know about. If you cant find a lot of information or help, or you are unsure about what will happen, I find it hard to stay positive.

Here are some of my problems. I have a brain tumor on my pituitary gland, and a girl years back gave me a nasty boot to the testicles ( I think she liked me ). The tumor with the other problem has led to inconsistencies in my hormones and other things. I have to take a shot every month, and on top of that my stomach has a real problem digesting. I am 6'5'' and I rarely stay above 140 pounds. I just got over a very bad spell of anxiety where I couldn't eat too much, and i dropped down to about 125 pounds.

With these types of problems, normal doctors really cant help you. I must see specialists, and even then, its all hmm and hawww.. "I cant help you" or "we will have to study you further". I am Canadian, and almost took a trip down to Michigan to let some place test me, but due to the recession, they were unable to pay for hotel and flight costs.

Basically I am just writing this to see if anyone else has had open ended problems that they cant solve or understand, how can I deal with this a little better? I know people who have anxiety often worry about ' what if' scenarios and the worst possible outcome, but maybe someone can help somehow?

I also have a history in my family of bad heart problems, My moms dad died when she was ten, my dads father has had 3 heart attacks, and my father already has had many heart problems which sent him to the hospital. With my problems, and low body weight, I often worry about my own heart, and find myself paniking at times when I feel I may be having heart murmurs or an irregular beat. I have had a one particular near death experience where I was alone in a forest, and I always remember that day, being scared about dieing alone, and worrying about how the people I hardly knew would find me. It is pretty dark stuff.

I am getting better, but maybe someone has gone through something like this , that can help?

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   Posted 1/11/2010 7:10 AM (GMT -7)   
I have a 35 year history with Crohns Disease, and I can tell you that it one of the biggest sources of anxiety for me. I am constantly worrying where the bathrooms are, is what I eat going to agree with me, and then of course there is the traveling issue, will I ruin a good time for my husband if I get sick. So yes a chronic illness does trigger anxiety. There is no cure for my disease, although having the disease is not a death sentence for me, it just makes life a little more difficult sometimes. Is this the kind of information you were looking for?

Thru therapy and the occasional Xanax I am now able to better control my anxiety.

Hope that helps.

Gail*Nanners* Co-Moderator for Crohns Disease & Anxiety/Panic
Crohn's Disease for over 34 years. Currently on Asacol, Prilosec, Estrace, Prinivil, Diltiazem, Percoset prn for pain, Zofran, Phenergan, Probiotics, Calcium, Vit D, and Xanax prn. Resections in 2002 & 2005. Also diagnosed w/ Fibromyalgia, Osteoarthritis, & Anxiety. Currently my Crohns is in remission, but my joints are going crazy!
*Every tomorrow has two handles.  We can take hold of it by the handle of anxiety, or by the handle of faith"*

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   Posted 1/11/2010 9:24 AM (GMT -7)   

Hey there and welcome to HealingWell. I am wondering about your brain tumor on your pituitary gland . The pituitary gland is a half-breed in many ways. It is not really a part of the brain, but rather hangs beneath it. Half of the gland comes down from the brain (the posterior lobe which controls the body's water levels and secretes the hormone ADH -- anti-diuretic hormone). The other half comes from tissues originating from the roof of the embryonic mouth, the anterior lobe which controls sex hormone levels, lactation, growth hormone, body steroids, and the thyroid gland). Tumors of the pituitary gland behave according to their cell of origin. I am guessing that your tumor was benign? What sort of treatment did you recieve for this tumor if you do not mind sharing?

Chronic Illness and Anxiety go hand in hand. Anxiety is a natural part of dealing with a chronic illness. When your body is challenged physically, it often times challenges the affects your brain chemicals which can lead to anxiety as well as depression. Not to mention that with a chronic illness a person is dealing with an avalanche of new experiences both physical and emotional and that can affect their emotional health.

Great input from Nanners.

My best advice is to "Stay in the Moment" and do not let yourself get caught up in the "what if?" thinking. I know this is hard to do as I am a person that worries about the "what ifs" so I do my very best to leave yesterday behind and not worry about tomorrow.

I wish you the very best and do stick with us.

Gentle Hugs


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Date Joined Jan 2010
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   Posted 1/17/2010 2:09 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks nanners and stkitt! :-)

Sorry for the late response, I have been super busy trying to get my life on track, and i've been seeing this girl....

My tumor is not cancerous, and I have received little treatment. Basically I get a shot of Testosterone in the bottom every month and every year or twice a year I have an MRI. It rules my life though, because many times I am not able to have sexual relations, or its hit or miss. This has made dating very hard for me. I have been very lucky finding nice girls, but I usually end up running because I am ashamed.

Right now I am seeing this girl, and we are taking it slow because of my situation, and she has a lot of baggage as well. That may seem like a rude term but not intended, but she is getting out of a different life style, and thinks im different or special. Just this night we hung out with some friends, and we have to keep everything a secret, because one mutual friend has loved her for some time and it makes everything awkward. Even tho she likes me, she doesn't show it at all, even though we are 'dating'. She has never once leaned in for a kiss, I always have to, and it makes me feel really weird. Im not sure if everything is in my head cause I am used to running, but Ive been really bummed out about it of late. I am really feeling like just telling her we should be friends tomorrow and end this, but I'm scared I may be making a mistake.

Sure I could 'talk to her about it' but I feel I already have, I'm at a loss for what to do. I am not even sure what I'm asking, it feels nice to just get it out though. I really like her, but I feel when i told her about myself I might have scared her a bit. I always worry she is just trying hard to like me or something, or wont just break it to me straight and end it. When I bring it up, she says no no she is just nervous around me, but I don't believe it. Maybe a female opinion on here will help me out, hehe.

Thanks again for your help everyone.
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