IS there a light at the end of this tunnel????

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Na na na Pepper
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   Posted 2/17/2010 11:50 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi.........i am new here.

My anxiety started in December 2009, after I had a miscarriage in November 2009. Ever since, I've had anxiety and it has gotten worse. I get it every other day if I am lucky..but usually it's everyday. I've only had a total of 3 MAJOR attacks, where I thought I was truthfully going to pass out and lose it. But everyday I do get attacks. Then after my miscarriage, I lose mybest friend because she tells me "F U, at least when I have a baby I won't have a miscarriage."

Right now I have Lorazapem, which is the only reason I can even ever calm down. Though I've only taken it 3 times, in the past 2 weeks since I was given it. Im NOT a fan of medicines because I hate feeling weird, or disoriented and I truthfully only take it when needed. I am only 19 years young...and this anxiety is ruining my life.

I've gotten it at the mall, grocery stores, at home, at work, in other public places, driving, etc. It's everywhere....I can't get rid of it. Some weeks are better than others though shakehead

My first psychiatrist appointment isn't til March 1st, but im having a hard time hanging in until then. I have a very loving boyfriend, and he doesnt understand what i am going thru, and agrees also that I am not the same person!! ALL i ever wanna do is sleep it sucks.

I think that I am stressed out, yet I don't feel it!!! I think i can't even realize what I am stressing out about.

This post may be a little long and all over...i took the lorazapem not too long ago might be why. I dont know is there any hope out there? The doctor said she thinks its post traumatic stress (miscarriage) and that it shouldnt be permanent but im going crazy here
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   Posted 2/17/2010 4:32 PM (GMT -7)   
I don't have anxiety from a certain thing, like you...mine happened for no at least you know where yours came from.
Yes it does get better (tho mine has gotten worse lately) and try to move your apt up if you can or go to a counselor until you see the psych. There are usually free ones in every city.
My mom just got on that same med but she says it doesn't help her. And I've not been on it. I was reluctant to even post b/c my situation and meds aren't the same....but I know what it feels like to be hopeless and freaked out. And your friend sounds like a douche...when bad times happen--that's when you find out who your friends are. Reach out to ppl you think will listen and you may be pleasantly surprised at who might know how you feel.

Na na na Pepper
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   Posted 2/17/2010 4:35 PM (GMT -7)   
I feel like nobody I talk to fully understands.

Honestly, I don't have any friends other than my boyfriend and my sister. When my attacks get bad, I actually get comfort from talking to my mother.

But I just don't get why my anxiety happens at the MOST random times... the times they happen dont make sense??

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   Posted 2/17/2010 5:16 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello there and please know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I have had Anxiety and Depression since 1982 and most of the time I do very well.

I have practiced staying in the moment and not overthinking "why" I am stuck with this dx. Accepting you are a person with anxiety is half the battle. Once you accept the dx then try working through ways to control it.

Have you tried CBT therapy?
Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughts cause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations, and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to feel / act better even if the situation does not change.

There is a great free online site you may want to try. It has helped many members here in the A & P Forum. At first it feels kind of simple but stick to it and work the program at your own pace.

Here is the link for it: the]

I hope you give this a try. Take care and I wish you peace,


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   Posted 2/17/2010 8:08 PM (GMT -7)   
As I recall the beginning of my anxiety showing up was the worst. It was so confusing and was accompanied by a complete lifestyle change for me. Believe it or not you seem to be ahead of the curve when it comes to seeking solutions. I wish I had sought out medical help or even recognized anxiety for what it was as early on as you have.

It is of course a process though. I'm with you when it comes to being stressed out and not realizing it. At least until the anxiety/panic rears its ugly head. Thats me all over. Slowly I'm getting better at noticing more subtle clues to mounting stress and if I'm feeling smart will take steps to relive them before the beast is on me. Again, its a process and one you will get, unless your anxiety is short lived, and hopefully it will be.

My 2 cents when it comes to taking Lorazapam is to not feel too shy about it. I also would resist taking diazepam because I didnt care for some of the effects. Also on a couple occasions I overdid it and had some amnesic results which were a little embarrassing. Additionally I thought if I could tough it out I'd be able to deal better in the future.
Eventually I realized that being sedated was preferable to feeling like I was about to lose my mind or die. There was no debt to pay afterward for the relief, and I don't think I was made stronger for the times I suffered through. If anything it slowed my mind down enough to focus and gain a little perspective on what I was dealing with. As time went on I needed them less and less.

It will be tough for your boyfriend to get it, might not be a bad idea to point him toward something like these forums or other reading material to shed a little light on it for him. I'm sure he is confused. My last girlfriend is the only person I've been with who could relate and truthfully I think we both gleaned great comfort in that. Incidentally her experience with anxiety started with a miscarriage as well, and over time did improve dramatically. You are getting hit with a craphammer right now but you appear to be taking the right steps to get better.

Best of luck.

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   Posted 2/18/2010 5:46 AM (GMT -7)   
Hello Na na
Dr Claire Weekes is about the best on explaining the symptoms of anxiety and how they effect your body, knowledge is power when dealing with anxiety. It will get better but it requires a lot of inner strenght and belief.

Na na na Pepper
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   Posted 2/21/2010 3:19 PM (GMT -7)   
I take Microgestin FE 1-20 for birth control. My anxiety has seem to heightened in this month that I started this medicine....

Is this possible? Or am I just thinking it?
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