I am so glad debaser has posted to you as he is wise and his advice is sound.
Low self-esteem is a constant companion for too many people, especially those who experience depression, anxiety, phobias, etc. Low self-esteem keeps you from enjoying life, doing the things you want to do, and working toward personal goals. You have a right to feel good about yourself. However, it can be very difficult to feel good about yourself when you are under the stress of having symptoms that are hard to manage.
It helps to take a closer look at your negative thought patterns to check out whether or not they are true. You may want a close friend or counselor to help you with this. When you are in a good mood and when you have a positive attitude about yourself, ask yourself the following questions about each negative thought you have noticed:
Is this message really true?
Would a person say this to another person? If not, why am I saying it to myself?
What do I get out of thinking this thought? If it makes me feel badly about myself, why not stop thinking it?
Develop positive statements you can say to yourself to replace these negative thoughts whenever you notice yourself thinking them. You can't think two thoughts at the same time. When you are thinking a positive thought about yourself, you can't be thinking a negative one. In developing these thoughts, use positive words like happy, peaceful, loving, enthusiastic, warm.
Avoid using negative words such as worried, frightened, upset, tired, bored, not, never, can't. Don't make a statement like "I am not going to worry any more." Instead say "I focus on the positive" or whatever feels right to you. Substitute "it would be nice if" for "should."
You are a good and deserving person and remember to take things one step at a time and you will overcome your anxieties and fears.
Keeping you in my prayers,