hello all. i am a 36 year old male. married, and have 2 wonderful kids. i have had some form of anxiety or fear my whole life. it was in my early 20's that i started having panic attacks and had to seek help. i learned how to live life with this problem for 2 or 3 years after that without meds, then i decided to start taking paxil (40mg/day). i have been taking paxil for 10 years now, and it has helped tremendously. i am a successful art director, and have had some mild anxiety here and there over the years while on paxil, but nothing i couldn't handle.
fast forward to 2 weeks ago. my 8 year old daughter decided she didn't want to go to school. she missed her mommy. my mind immediately went to "she is having anxiety. she is going to have an anxiety disorder for the rest of her life." needless to say, i was heartbroken. i began doing all the research i could on the web. for those of us that have used the web to search anxiety disorders...it can be a very scary place. in the midst of worrying about my daughter, I began to feel those old anxiety feelings creeping back.
my daughter is doing ok. she still doesn't want to go to school. there is no bullying or anything like that going on. she just says she misses her mom, and that it makes her tummy hurt. she has never had fear, anxiety, worry, or anything like that so far. she has always been happy, independent, and a joy to be around.
as the weeks went on, my anxiety got progressively worse. now i feel like i am back to where i started: can't eat, can't stop thinking about my daughter, can't stop thinking about my own anxiety, racing thoughts, sick in the pit of my stomach. everything seems overwhelming. the whole 9 yards.
there are also some other stressors in my life that may be contributing to this anxiety. let me explain. i was recently promoted at work, meaning: new job, new employees, new business partner, new product. my family is also moving to a new house in 3 weeks. i'm worried that the paxil has stopped working. and to top all that off, i just can't stop myself from worrying and being sick over my daughter.
has anyone out there had any experiences like this? 10 years of being happy and "mentally" healthy...and BAM. i feel like i am at the end of my rope, and there is nowhere else to go. i feel like i could lose it all at any moment. has the paxil really stopped working? if so, will other meds work just as effectively? is my daughter going to be ok? AM I GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS?
sorry for the long post, and thanks for any help you guys can offer. kind regards, ac.