Think I may be OCD

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   Posted 6/15/2010 12:17 PM (GMT -7)   
I've had pervasive unwanted sexual thoughts for a long time, probaly since I was like 8-9, and at one point even went so far as to expose myself to some of this stuff online when I was a young teen because I was confused and curious. It just made me REALLY angry and upset to see these things. I believe I have these thoughts because of some things I was exposed to when I was a kid, and things that have happened to my parents when they were younger. Does anyone else have these sort of problems?
Its not SEVERE, I can still work and function, but the problem is that I would like to tell my man about them but I truly believe he would NOT understand and think of me as disgusting and perverse. I have read that this is a common thing, and that these thoughts are just that-- thoughts and not reality. I would never act on any of these things ever. How can I overcome the guilt associated with the images in my head? Should I talk to someone? I don't want to be labeled as a sexual deviant, but it would be nice to have someone tell me 'hey, your not crazy, everyone thinks about things like that at some point in their life and your not alone in the world'.
Any help?

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   Posted 6/15/2010 2:18 PM (GMT -7)   
I can't say it's something I've particularly associated with my issues surrounding anxiety (also bipolar/ADHD), but more something I label as just being human. For me random, particularly unwanted or unintended, thoughts don't manifest sexually, but are violent in nature. Sort of like the hypothetical question, "You're standing on a subway platform (or busy street-corner, or cliff-face) next to your best friend. Have you ever thought about how simple that little push would be?" It's one of those thoughts that occurs to you. You don't want it. You don't want to act on it. But it comes to you. You can either feel guilty about it or let it pass.

I too have can have a hard time with the guilty feelings.

And yes, talking to someone would be a good idea. It doesn't necessarily have to be a therapist. If you have someone close to you that you trust and whom you don't think will judge you, just letting your thoughts out as words can be refreshing and very helpful (the act of saying what you feel is a large part of what works about therapy). If you don't have that someone, you could try writing it down - this can be time consuming, but it also helps. Anything that takes what's inside and gets it out.

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   Posted 6/15/2010 3:20 PM (GMT -7)   
You hit the nail on the head with that one, Mistix. I think I really have a problem dealing with guilt. I have stumbled across some things online that were horrific, and I did NOT intend to see them, and yet I feel horrible as I was out to seek that.
So I guess I'm not alone on that one? I have been writing these things down and it does help, but I feel like talking would definetly help more. The hard thing is finding someone I feel close enough to talk to about these things.
Thanks for the reply. I guess I need the moral support more than anything.

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   Posted 6/15/2010 3:36 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello and I am glad you were brave enough to post your questions here in the A & P Forum and take a chance on us understanding what your going through.

1st of all you are NOT your thoughts - understanding this is crucial.

It is said that most humans have distressing thoughts that can be of a violent and/or sexual nature, but they simply don't seem to make much of an impact. They don't tend to stick in the person's mind, but more importantly, the person can dispel them as being just a thought.

So why does this "normal" thinking process affect people with OCD differently?
It is what you do with the Thoughts/Images which is important and people with OCD who have these types of obsessions can't dispel them as easily.

I feel you should see a professional psychologist because while there are things you can do for yourself, they will structure your efforts so they will work for you even more efficiently.

As far as what to tell your man, IMHO, you needn't share every single feeling or deed.

Take care and I hope you find some help in the posts here in this thread.



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   Posted 6/16/2010 5:52 PM (GMT -7)   
I have OCD thinking. Basically, I have a hard time releasing a thought out of my mind and I can't stop worrying about it. For me I have this fear of going crazy. So if I have a very bizarre bad dream or some thought comes into my head I immediately panic because I worry that "this is it, I'm going to start hearing voices or hallucinate" even though I know this isn't true.

My psychologist has helped me a lot with this - learning how to shut off the thinking spiral and learning that I'm not crazy.

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   Posted 6/18/2010 8:37 AM (GMT -7)   
I have been taking the last few days to try and reconnect with my spirituality (collective consciousness and the power of love and affirmation <3). This has helped me a LOT.
Whenever I am connected to my spiritual path, I think nothing but love and success. I lost that connection in the past year or so and needed to find my footing once again.
As ridiculous as it may sound, I have been thinking that alot of these negitive images/thoughts I've been having have alot to do with my dads recent death. He suffered some sexual abuse as a child, as did my mother, as did my brother. My dad was the person that my mom and brother talked to about these problems, and he discussed his problems with them in turn. I have these feelings that are so incredibly powerful that I feel they are my own, but upon reflection, I think that these feelings are of unrest that my dads 'soul' has about not being able to confront these problems during his lifetime. I know it sounds a little nuts, but thats my justification of how I feel. This has settled my nervousness and given me the power to trust myself in this.
I also spoke with my mom. She's seen councellors before so she offered to set me up an appointment, but I don't want to dwell on what happened/what i'm doing that I feel bad about. Rather, I will use my spirituality to ground me in faith.
Also!! I spoke with many other people my age (including my man who I felt I was withholding these feelings from) and confirmed my thoughts that we are the first generation to be exposed to the internet and its breeding ground of sickness and negativity. I strongly believe that this has a huge role to play in the way my 'OCD' thinking has developed. No other generation of kids have been exposed to this, and we don't yet know what kind of psychological damage that unsupervised internet access can lead to. I hope to explore this notion in the future, maybe as a way of healing those who have had to suffer the same damage I did.
Basically, I just keep telling myself, today will be better than yesterday, and yesterday was better than the day before. This has been working. :)

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   Posted 6/19/2010 8:37 AM (GMT -7)   
Although i believe the internet has spiked this type of behaviour
i do also believe there has always been ways n means to get this info prior to internet
the net can be a good thing imho
or your worst nightmare
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