Hey, my name is Erick. I just recently found this forum, and I'm really glad I did, it's been helping me a great deal. So I'll share a little bit about
me and how I came across this forum. Three weeks ago, I got drunk with a couple of friends, and everything went pretty normal. The next day, I was still a little bit drunk and hung over, which was what I normally feel after some drinking. Now mind you, I rarely drink, I'm 20 years old, but I have only been drunk a few times. However, later during that day, I experienced my first anxiety attack while driving somewhere, and it scared so much, I almost had to pull over. My heart started pounding, I felt very hot, and started to freak out. I have never felt anything like that before, and it scared me quite a bit. A few people have blamed it on the fact that I might have been still drunk, but unfortunately that did not end there. That night, I was at a neighbors house for a bbq, and after we ate, I got a weird sensation that freaked me out, a sensation that made me feel really out of it, a feeling where you know that you're physically there, but not mentally there. I was zoning out and I could not pay attention for the life of me. I tried going to sleep that night, and throughout that week, but I kept having anxiety attacks during the nights and the day. I kept feeling like something was off, and kept getting that sensation, which brought on the anxiety attacks. That "out of it" sensation that I had a couple nights previously, ended up lasting for the past three weeks, and every now and then I keep getting anxiety attacks over it. However, it's come to the point where I feel this sensation never leaves me, and I'm constantly thinking and feeling it. It has caused me to feel very depressed and very anxious about
things, and I feel I can't even leave my house or drive anymore without being scared and feeling like this. And when I drive, I feel like I'm in a constant feeling of highway hypnosis, where I know my mind is not completely on the road, which is causing me to become fearful of driving. It has seriously taken over everything, and it's on my mind 24/7. I just started seeing a therapist last week, who thinks I may actually have depression, but the thing is, I've never felt depressed in my life until after that night of drinking and when the anxiety started. Now, I feel so anxious everyday, and this sensation seems to never leave my body and it is physically and mentally draining. I constantly worry and get headaches. I know it's all from stress too, but I can't stop. I'm sure I'm not making any sense, and I apologize for writing so much, but maybe someone else out there knows what I'm talking about
or how I'm feeling? I read on a post on here that was from 2005, where someone was saying that anxiety brings on this sensation, so that's why I came here..
Post Edited (OctoberK) : 7/17/2010 8:28:19 PM (GMT-6)