Thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking the time to read that. It's nice to know there is someone else in this world who cares even though you don't know me. Thought I'd just vent some (which is a benefit to anonymity I guess), but my girlfriend, now ex girlfriend I suppose, ended things indefinitely with me last night. She was too tired of the stress of trying to patch up a stressful long-distance relationship, and wanted room to grow and experience the world independently. What am I going to say to that? I mean she has every right to grow and mature and form new relationships and understand the world apart from me. Maybe we're right for each other, maybe we're not. My heart's telling me we are, but what do I know.. I'm only 21.
She still does love me... and I, her. She told me what's meant to happen will happen -- if we're supposed to be together, we'll find a way. It's tough to buy into the whole fate thing with a broken heart though. She was my best friend throughout my maturation into a young adult and stuck by me through a lot. I don't have a lot of really good friends, and it's tough because she was my 'person', you know? She got me, and I got her. I would talk to her about anything and everything, and now, when I really really just need to talk to someone that loves me, I can't. It's weird how things happen like that. She's very social and outgoing, but I'm more reserved. That makes it hard, too. I know she'll be fine and move on to other guys and have a wonderful life. It's just a little harder for me.. I'm more cerebral and it's going to take me a long time to kinda restart my life on my own. I just feel like I lost everything all at once. I don't like crying at all, but I've been doing a lot of it. Any tips to make it stop?
It's okay if no one reads this, it's just really hard when there isn't anyone to talk to, and I'm still trying to make sense of everything. But there I am, world. I'll be doing you solo for a while I guess. Help me out.