Posted 8/24/2010 11:07 PM (GMT -7)
This is exactly what has happened as well as I can recall it. Starting early July I developed a strange breathing problem where it felt like I was unable to breath in and get the last bit of oxygen to satisfy the breath, thus I yawned a lot but to no avail and it drove me crazy keeping me awake at night until 4am because everytime I would lull almost to sleep it would wake me up. I received an albuterol sulfate inhaler and as I had bronchitis and a cold at the time I also received Bromfed. Took this every 4 hours right on whether needed or not. They had little effect, actually seemed to worsen symptom. Finally one night I had taken it right before bed and during the night as I was lulling to sleep I felt a sudden strong jolt of adrenaline, for no reason. I dismissed it but again as I was in that stage right before sleep and awake, another jolt woke me up. I tried to fight through but it brought on strange feelings, like sensations that I was going to fall through my bed until I would open my eyes. It scared me a lot and early morning I decided to stay up because there seemed nothing I could do. Finally the feeling became stronger, slowly building, pumping more and more adrenaline until I couldn’t take and woke up my parents and went to the emergency room. It was gone completely and my breathing was fine, of course as soon as I get there, and they took chest x rays and dismissed it as a tickle in the back of my throat that woke me up but I knew it was much more than that. They told me to take z packs for the bronchitis and mucinex instead of bromfed. I did and that day I was exhausted and tried to sleep but the jolts wouldn’t let me. Took advice to relax after I talked to my doctor over the phone, wind down before sleep and still the jolts didn’t stop until 430am. Slept until 9. That was the beginning of all this. I realized it was anxiety attacks later on because the next day I had what I call a panic attack seemingly triggered by the onset of night. There was nothing I could do to stop it, adrenaline pumping relentlessly that brought me to my knees trying to vomit and the world spinning, an incredibly disturbing feeling. I laid down and 5 mins later after only about a 7 min attack I was completely fine, actually felt great. I still had the jolts until early in the morning and didn’t sleep much again, but wasn’t at all fatigued or tired at all. I experienced an uneasy feeling for the next few days, fear of another attack I guess, it felt like one could go off any second and I would have to lay down to make it go away. Soon I was introduced to valium by my doctor which worked miracles. I was afraid to use it at first, really don’t want to get addicted but one night I had no choice. I took Benadryl and it made my heart pump out of my chest and my mind race, thinking thoughts I didn’t understand, like someone was in control of my thoughts which caused the adrenaline to pump. I took half and it completely sedated me, quite pleasant feeling, my mind was racing but my body didn’t respond it was very relaxing and I slept well. The next days I tried melantonin but it had strange unpleasant effects on my mind. Resorted to valium for a little more than a week, trying to wean myself off. I finally slept for two days pretty well without it. On the third day however I had napped all day, I felt I couldn’t go anywhere so I just lounged around doing nothing resulting in me staying up all that night. Went to sleep at 8 in the morning with no complications but my dad woke me up at 10 advising I don’t sleep in the day. I stayed up all day, although I was completely exhausted and when night came I had energy so I took a valium which sedates me pretty well. However, 30 mins after taking it I experienced this strange sensation like my nervous system was going haywire. It took the place of the adrenaline pumping in waking me up. It was very disturbing and when I sat up it kept building, starting from the lower center of my chest and spreading throughout my torso. I went to the bathroom and started feeling like I was going to vomit. Kneeling there I felt like there was a lot of various chemicals releasing every 5 mins that didn’t need to be released and I noticed my heart beating extremely fast like I had never known it to beat, I was shaking and couldn’t control it. This was very disturbing and unpleasant, very tempted to go to the emergency room several times. It lasted altogether about an hour and I experienced no adrenaline rush or anything as I had taken the valium. As abruptly as it had started it stopped. I felt extremely relaxed and my heart slowed down so much so I thought it was going to stop. Slept great and during the next day I experienced a similar attack that only last 10 mins and it was only the nervous system seeming to go out of control and extreme tiredness so I laid down and fought through it and again as quickly as its onset it left and I felt great, like I had taken a valium, except I hadn’t or haven’t taken a valium since the first incident fearing it may have been some sudden strange adverse reaction although it had worked quite well before. Then that night the strange nervous system feeling came back, as soon as I tried to sleep, and it was awful, nothing I did would stop it and it wasn’t an attack like before where it came and went, it just stayed, primarily low key because I didn’t experience a need to vomit or rapid heart beat or anything, no adrenaline rush or anything at all. It kept me awake all night and I didn’t sleep until the next morning where I had no problems with it during the day. Finally the night came and it returned, only when I decided to try to sleep, it caused me to sweet and kept waking me up. My whole nervous system just jolting me awake and some strange tingling, my quads by my knee felt hot but were cool to the touch, and sometimes my back has felt sunburned although its not. I stayed awake the whole night and slept fine the next day, but never getting much sleep in the day although I felt relaxed. I had some complications during the day, one time when I was trying to rest on the couch my whole nervous system erupted in the sensation that I was falling or flying through the air and when I trouble to move to make it go away I found I couldn’t move. I couldn’t speak or anything. I thought it might be sleep paralysis which I later looked up but I wasn’t asleep just resting, mostly awake in fact. Finally I was able to kick my foot and my movement was restored but this was very alarming, it was the second time it had happened. During the night I had a sudden strange bout of depression, just felt hopeless and horrible but eventually it left. Then the night came and with it the new nervous system attack. It kept me awake sweating trying to fight it but couldn’t so I got up and stayed up all night. Next day it left and I slept, which would be today, august 24. I felt great during the day besides the effects of getting very little sleep the past few days. Now it is night again and as I tried to go to sleep I found myself needing to go to the bathroom urgently. I had diarrhea twice, the second time more severe and combined with the nervous system attack I felt very weak and faint, and needed to throw up. For the past few days I’ve found when I eat I feel starved but after a few bites I am full. As I’m typing this I feel very strange, like I might faint. When I did try to sleep I fought my nervous system attacks but finally they seemed to make my lungs stop in an attempt to wake me up. I feel really strange right now and its causing my adrenaline to pump a little, my nerves aren’t attacking but they’re here and it is an unpleasant feeling, like I might faint or black out or go into a seizure, just very disturbing like I am not in my body. It is worst tonight and it feels like I’m going to die and there’s nothing I can do. I feel hungry but I’m afraid I’ll have diarrhea again and feel worse. I am not really an anxious person but I do have some genetics for it. I’m on no medicine right now and at the end of my rope. Not suicidal but these symptoms are so real and disturbing I feel I may go into a coma or become paralyzed. I had to take<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> a break from writing I feel very strange like I’m about to sleep away into another world. It scares me a lot and my stomach is very weak. This seems to only happen at night. I think I may be going insane, because I don’t feel anxious or panicy but have many symptoms and the feeling of going into a coma or seizure or becoming paralyzed is almost unbearable. I’ll be up all night again. I’m strongly considering going to the ER right now. I would not wish this upon any person. I fear I have some kind of strange brain disorder and no one will ever figure it out and I will be like this forever. I would really do anything to feel normal and be able to sleep again. Sometimes I just want to join the marines and purposefully be killed in battle, much better to be dead I think than alive in this state. Thoughts like the previous sentence are what scare me to think I would ever think that, I am really a healthy person and have no clue what this could be. My stomach feels very weak right now like if I sit or lay straight I’ll throw up or something awful. I don’t want to be afraid but it feels like I’m really high sometimes when I know I’ve taken nothing, and its accompanied by all these other symptoms. Sometimes I will try to pretend that the feelings are cool and enjoyable but it doesn’t work, it is the worst feeling ever, and not knowing what it is makes it ten times worse. I would literally do anything to be rid of this. I don’t know how long I can hold on.