Hello I am new to this, but I have been feeling as though I am having panic attacks. It all started when I had my baby boy, well he's 2and a half now, but I was induced 5 weeks eraily because my blood pressure was going up and kept going up, so to be on the safe side I was induced. 7 hours later I had my baby boy. I was kept in the hospital a week and a half before I had him and a week after I had him because my blood pressure wouldn't go back down. I had a lot of time on my hands while in there before I had him that I did a lot of reading on high blood pressure and it scarrd the **** out of me. Then I had him and my blood pressure didn't go back down as is usually does, but I talked my doctor into letting me go home and I would go see my doctor whom she knew the next day. o I got to go home and I did see my doctor the next day, he put me on different meds and I had told him that I have diagnosed myself with "White Coat Hypertension" and that I bet my bllod pressure was fine, but as soon as I saw a doctor or nurse and thay had a bllod pressure machine my blood pressure would go sky high. 3 months after I had my son my I had a gull bladder attack which required me to have it removed. A couple weeks after that I was taken off my meds. Yay for me, but I have a blood pressure machine at my house and I still to this day check my BP. It is usually always great, but if I think about taking it before I take it my heart pounds, my face feels red and I can feel it going up.
I guess it all started right there. I never had any problems with my health before that. I was a smoker of weed and ciggeretts before I got pregnant, but after I had him I was back to my old habits of smoking ciggeretts and I just finally quit smoking ciggeretts month ago cold turkey and I am proud of my self, but since then I have had chest pains and I get my self all worked up thinking that I am going to have aheart attack through the night when we are all sleeping and not wake up in the morning, or that I have cancer of some kind, or some days I feel sooo dizzy that I get myself all worked up thinking that I must have some kind of brain cancer, fear that my son is going to have to go on with out his mother, this has been going on for months/years now. I have not yet talked to my doctor because I thought I was going crazy and the last thing you want to hear is that you are crazy. I am sick and tired of feeling this way that I think I am driving myself crazy. I am going to make a doctors appointment tomorrow, but there is my other fear,I am scarred that my doctor is going to do all theses tests and I am going to find out that I am dying. I am stuck in a hard place right now, but I am trying to convince myself to just bite the bullett and go!
Am I the only one who feels this way?? I talk to my mom and my husband and they seem to think I can "just get over it". "Stop thinking about it" which is easier said then done. My mind never stops!