I'm new to the forum and desperate for some advice/help. I'll try and make this as short as possible because sure you've all read these posts before.
Here's my history...
I have had issues with anxiety for as long as I can remember. I would panic using a telephone, having shirts pulled over my head, heights, air travel, etc. As a teen I would resort to alcohol almost daily just to take the edge off during school. There were even days I would skip school just to stay home and clean the house. As I got older and began working my face would blush almost everytime I would have contact with a person. I did see a psychologist for a very brief time (never can commit to one) and was given Buspar (this was about 12 years ago). I only took the meds for a short time because I'm not a fan of medication. Through the years I've managed to keep things pretty much under control (i.e. pause while talking so that I'm not quick to respond; remind myself that other people blush on occassion; etc). Within the past few years things are getting pretty uncomfortable. I've had two difficult pregnancies where I was on bed rest the entire time and even hospitalized. After the birth of the twins I almost died from hemmorhage. Then I became pregnant soon after. I am now a stay at home mother of 4 (16 yr, 3 yr old twins, 2 yr old). I have panic attacks on the freeway and even some surface streets. I find myself using xanax just to drive somedays. Acupuncture has helped, but doesn't seem to fix it. My appetite is just about gone and even food doesn't quite taste the same. In the past I have been able to work through these issues on my own, but due to being a stay at home mom who doesn't have much solo time...it's been hard to think clearly. I'm pretty sure much of panic stems from a fear of dying (sparked from my post pregnancy emergency)...just don't know how to tackle it solo.
Anyone with words of advice? This is getting old...and some day I hope to have a job outside of the home that may require me to travel on the freeway.