Hello A/P family...Ive been having a rough time...again...so I thought I would come and talk to my support group. I really thought I was able to handle things but I guess I was wrong. I really thought that I had MY anxiety figured out and that I was past those "random" PAs. I woke up in the middle of the night last weekend with my heart racing, and it scared the crap out of me. I havent had this happen in 5 years. I almost thought I was going to have to take a trip to the ER. I couldnt calm down and I had to wake my fiancee up to help me. After about
an hour and a half I was able to calm down and go back to sleep. The next morning I was still a little "shaky" because I was so worried about
the night before. Later on we went to my cousins for dinner I was sitting down with my daughter about
to eat then out of nowhere I got that "pre PA" feeling again. I didnt want to embarrass myself in front of my family even though my cousin suffers from anxiety also (she can function a lot better with it though) and the rest of my family knows my issues. So I sat my daughter down and ran down to the basement with my fiancee and told him what was going on and I stared feeling a little better but not completely. I was able to get through the next hour and then we went home and I was fine.
Now Fast forward to this weekend and I think I caught myself a cold
I got up this morning to do some cleaning for the holidays then took a nap. After i got up from my nap I just felt worse I felt hot and light headed and started getting panicky. I think its the health anxiety telling me I might have a flu bug and Im worrying. I had a "mild' panic attack and now Im sorta down in the dumps. I always get depressed after a panic attack because they make me feel like I have lost the fight. Not to mention I cant see my therapist anymore. And to make matters worse last weekend has made me more aware of my heart rate and I always worry that its more than my anxiety causing it to beat so fast. I just dont know what to do. At least I feel a little better after coming here I dont know what I would do sometimes without this site and everyone here.
This too shall pass...