So ive been dating this guy for a few months, as was mentioned in my very last post.. i dont know him that well at all.. he seems like he would treat me very well although he became too full on wanting a full on commited relationship when i had been independant and signle for almost 4 years so i broke it off with him and said i wanted a more casual approach he doesnt seem to get it but my dilemma is, i feel like i need a life of fun and experiances.. becoz of anxiety i havent been able to have that really yet and i feel like im abit more ready to do these things.. apart of me is curious to explore the world.. meet new and interesting ppl and then on the otherhand i think if i just settle down with this guy i will have my dream of having a partner and someone there who will love me as a security thing.. i feel like if i dont take this now what if i miss out, he seems to know what im like and im a little "diffrent' and i feel like ive gotten that stage over for now i dont wanna have to go through it again with someone else if i dont choose him. he will love me and take care of me.. but i have other dreams and sometimes i think maybe im kidding myself of being too greedy, perhaps becoz i have issues that maybe i should take what i can get, perhaps wanting to live a little and be free and happy is asking too much i dunno. if i was to go with this guy it will change my life.. i wont commit right away but if i go with him i probably will stay with him as i wouldnt wanna change partners again. should i go for the guy who will give me love and security which i feel i somewhat need or should i take the time to explore life which is equally important. i feel sick as i cant make a decision. please help.
note: this guy isnt even my dream man, but he is loving and will take care of me.. perhaps i could meet someone later who is what i dream more of but i dont wanna be greedy and unrealistic dreaming of things that may never happen. also im 26 and i feel im getting old and i told myself that i must have a bf by the end of the year.. and it is the end of the year and when i met him i imagined him being it.. but i dunno he lives far too about an hours drive. what does it sound like i need and should do??
Post Edited (oldsoul84) : 11/25/2010 10:36:42 PM (GMT-7)