Thank you everyone for your kind thoughts and suggestions. I really appreciate your support and comments.
The car bomb situation turned out not to be that big of a deal. It was a sting operation set up by the FBI. The bomb was never operational. I have seen a couple of cars with National Security marked on the front doors cruising the downtown area. Other than that it has been pretty quiet.
Remembering the very special times I had with my father when I was a child really helped me to work through my grief. He had a beautiful voice and would read books aloud to a tape recorder when he was traveling. I still have some of the tapes he sent me. He became pretty demented and cruel in his later years. He legally disowned me because of my career choice. He disowned one of my sisters because of her choice of husband and another one for her lifestyle. Only one of his seven children had any contact with him when he died. None of his four wives had anything to do with him. It always feels a little weird to miss someone who caused so much pain.
I am still waking up every night either screaming or crying from night panics. I haven't been having any panic attacks during the day which is great. The alprazolam is working! I know the night problems are because of my husband's unemployment. Tomorrow I find out about
the two tumors removed last week. Good heavens, I guess I do have a few things to be anxious about
. I just wish I was better at releasing tension in normal ways. Time to start exercising more and keeping a daily gratitude journal.
All my best to everyone!
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