Hi everyone, I've been suffering with anxiety for about 2 years on and off. Although i've always been a worrier my anxiety really started after there was a major falling out in my family and every gathering became a source of stress and worry. Around the same time I dropped out of uni I couldn't help having overwhelming feelings of failure and that i'd let me parents down. After all this happened I started getting weird physical symptoms like headaches, stomach problems and stabbing pains literally everywhere! I also couldnt eat and just the thought of food made me want to throw up.
So off I went to the doctor, expecting him to tell me I was dying or something and he carried out tests for thyroid problems, anemia and a few other things. They all came back clear and he said it was more than likley all down to anxiety. Shortly after my symptoms disappeared for a long time, but a few months ago I started getting burning pains in my joints, especially in my fingers. Arthiritis runs in my family and my great aunt had it severley and at a very young age, so naturally I started freaking out again! Once again I went to the doctors and he agreed to give me a test for arthiritis even though he said it was very unlikely due to my age, but due to my family history it would be for the best. Once again they came back clear.
However the past month or so my anxiety is really back with avengence, I'm getting pain everywhere and can't stop worrying about all the diseases I could have. I'm also addicted to self diagonosing myself online, which I know is the worst thing you can do but I can't help myself!
Anyway, the reason i've decided to come online is that no on understands what i'm going through. I try to talk to my mom about it but she bascially tells me to stop being a hypocondriac. My friends don't know about it as im too embarrassed to talk about it because I know they won't undertsand. I'm only 20 years old and I feel like im missing out on life due to all the worrying and the physical symptoms that come from it. Sorry this is such a long post but I really need to talk to people who will understand how this feels.
Any advice would be hugely appreciated!
I just want to follow this post. I made another posting just tonight about Support and coping skills.