Kitt, Scaredy Cat, Green Grove, thank you so very much for your thoughts and prayers. My husband has a lot of growing up to do and he's pretty set in his ways, and I don't know how he feels about our marriage anymore. He said that he won't go to another counseling session with me, but maybe I can convince him to anyhow (with God's help). I believe the Lord wants me to wait and pray, and that's what I'm doing. If we are meant to stay together, the Lord will make a way. If not, then I will know that too.
My goal is to go back to work, but I don't know if I can do it; I have panic attacks every time I even think about it or am confronted with it by my psychiatrist. It may be that I am to be on disability instead of working. I'm juggling all this and sometimes I just don't know what to pray except, "Lord, your will be done." I am thinking about going to a church just a couple of miles from my parent's house, and they said they would go, too. I will keep you updated on everything that goes on, and hopefully some good news will come instead of bad. Again, I thank you bunches for your advice and prayers. May all of you enjoy peace, joy and love in this Christmas season. If there's any questions I left unanswered, please let me know and I will post again.
I am a 21-year employee of the United States Postal Service, which has been a long period of trials and troubles for me. I've been physically ill a lot and suffer from depression, obscessive-compulsive, and panic disorder, just found out I have PTSD too. What a basketful! Lord Jesus, take it all away, please!