I really need help right now!! I really really do!! I have been on 1mg klonopin twice a day for about
2 or 3 years. I am now 5 weeks pregnat. I want to come off the klonopin for the baby but for myself also. I've tried coming off it on my own several times. I never could. I'd get to day 3 and I couldnt stand it. Then again I was trying to come off it by a half a mg at a time. And with no valuim. Maybe if I did it a fourth at a time?
I have been trying to get in to see a doctor but the medicade ppl have been so cruel to me!!! They keep asking for my husband's wage information and he was working for my dad for cash. Each week they worked different hours and so he got paid differently. They want my dad to fill out paperwork that he refuses to fill out bc of something to do with taxes or something. And so the medicade ppl wont give me medicade!!!!! I have tried and tried and they keep asking for the same thing! I cant give them what someone wont give me. Now my husband is unemployed by my dad bc the job is done and I tried applying for medicade again and they STILL want his wages from months ago!!!!!! I cant give them that!!!!! My dad wont give me that!!!!!!!!!
So I know I need to wean from my klonopin! I need to do it for the baby and myself. But I cant get in to see a doctor bc of the medicade ppl. I have an apt with a mental health place but they have already warned me that it will be months before I could see the doc that prescribes the pills and helps you in any pill way. Like coming off or whatever. I have to have 2 intake apts before I can even TALK to a real therapist!!!!!
I feel like I am loosing my mind!!!!!!!! I've tried everything and I'm getting nowhere! This baby is probably already affected by the klonopin. I cant say that for sure yea. And maybe I shouldnt dwell on things I dont know for sure yea. But the way the government and the whole medical system work, the way the WORLD OF APATHY works, I cant take it anymore! Something should have been done already! I feel like I'm screaming and screaming and screaming and all I hear back is, "Please take a number and wait your turn". Then I do what I'm told and STILL get nowhere!!!!!!!!! I dont know what to do anymore!!!!!!!
Someone told me today and is pushing me today to start TODAY taking 1/4th less of my klonopin. I for 1 dont have a pill cutter to cut a 2mg pill into 4ths. No money bc my husband has no job so I cant go buy one. Plus this isnt under a doctor's supervision and I'm really scared!!!!!!! Not that its a bad idea, I just dont know if it is or not? I dont know if I can do it! This is addiction now where my body already gives me tolerance withdrawal and from a build up of taking all these years. I know the difference between regular anxiety and this! And this is suffering! I dont know that I'll be able to take myself down with out giving up! I'm scared!
I was told in the ER 3 times 3 years ago that I needed to stop being so afraid of addiction to this and just take my prescribed dose. I told them time and time again that I was too afraid of THIS happening! They said it was a small dose and I'd be fine. I'M.....NOT.....FINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I dont know what I should do!?!?!?!?! Do you?????