Good MOrning Peeps
Ok so i was at the Doctors this morning and she had referred me to my Comunity mental health team (they deal with everything from depression to seriously mental ill patients) I was 100% up for therapy and i have told her this and hopefully within a few weeks i will get an appointment :=D
This has made me rather happy as I am depserate to start some kind opf therapy treatment wether it be CBT or another type!!
The Dr has also recommended i stay on my BUspar for the forseable future ( few months at least) and has also given me a small dose (20mg pd) of prozac, also still to take my temazepam in the evening when needed for sleep.
I must admit all this news has calmed me somewhat knowing i have the safety net of the benzo for night time, although she has advised me to try and only take it every other night I still feel calmed by the fact that i have the option if i need it!!!
Also big step for me today also was........... I usually only go in the car to the doctors and back again because i start to panic about
being outside too long, BUT,
Today i managed to fill my own prescript
ion and wait for it, also go to the bank and pay my bills and i also managed to go to my local bistro for brunch with my Mum and GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!!! Shock horror.........I ate a BLT!!!!!!!! The 1st solid proper food i've eaten in about
2 or 3 weeks other than soup or toast............ It might sound quite big headed of me but i am thoroughly proud of myself for taking these steps and enjoying the fact i'm having a semi good day!!!!
In all honesty I never belived that gettin up in the moring and gettin dressed and going out even for a short while was so much more theraputic than waking up and not gettin out of bed and sitting a wallowing in my self pity (cause tbh thats what i do most of the time)
So i agree with everyone who has said it gettin up and gettin moving makes you feel at least 50% better than you do when you closet youself away.
I just really wanted to share my experience with everyone to show you that you can make a difference by taking those small steps and sometimes the big ones too!!!
I wish everyone a good day and sending lots of positive and healing vibes!!
Huge Hugs for all!!!
And also many many many thanks to Kitt, S.C, Hibee, Babette, and a few others who have given me some absoloutly Wonferful advice and have always had an answer or opinion in everything that i ask!!! Also to everyone else i have spoken with over the past week or so I thank you all for your encouragement advice and tenderness it has helped a lot!!
(so many names for me hahahahaha)
There is a land called passive agressiva and i am its queen
Meds: Buspar 5mg 4 times daily , Bisoprolol 1.25mg (beta blocker) , Sertraline