I posted on here a bout a month ago. I was having bad anxiety that kept me from living my normal life. I had a spinal fusion surgery planed for the begining of November and on my way to the doctors two weeks before I had my first and really my only panic attack. Since then the anxiety of having another panic attack kept me from my daily life.
Few things have happend since I wrote on here last. My boyfriend returned from deployment. At first I was worried he would start to get fusturated with me not being my normal self, but he has been very supportive.
My big fear was going to the doctors I was scared I was going to have a panic attack there or on the way there. I was worried about embrassing myself and feeling stuck outside my comfort zone. Last monday I proved myslef wrong! I had the will power I really wanted my life back not only did I go to the doctor, I drove there. I was stayed calm the whole time. I had written her a note of everything I wanted to say to her in case I could not. I was able to read to her the note.
I got put on citalopram and have to slowy work into the dose I am going to be taking. I have had anxiety moments this past week, but have also had moments when I feel like myself again. My moments of anixety are still like waves. It just feels like a rush of panic and it goes away within a few seconds but is followed by racing thougts.