Well I was hoping to get some of those encouraging "it will be okay" replies from some of you guys, but the dentist office just called and they want me there earlier. I have to leave in a few minutes.
God help me. The pain hasn't let up but my nerves have just hit top gear.
edit -- well I have decided not to shave or take a shower or anything. The dentist's office is only five minutes or less away, and it's 10:30. That gives me 26 minutes to calm myself down. My plan was to wake up and just sort of take things slowly, working up to the appointment. No go on that one, but my mouth hurts so bad I'd rather deal with the sudden anxiety and get there earlier.
I remember on Thursday morning when I started calling dentists at 8am sharp. When I finally got an appointment, wow was I scared. I didn't know it was just an examination. I thought and hoped they'd start working on me that day, so figuring I'd be sedated or something I called "Nervousness" to come home from work and take me there. While waiting for her I paced in circles in the driveway, chain smoking. I'm sure the dentist and his assistants appreciated that. The fear I felt then is the same I'm feeling now, and I'm kind of surprised by that because I thought once I sat down in that stupid chair I'd overcome something. Well, not completely I guess.
I really wish I would have gotten the sedation. When the lady called a few minutes ago I asked if it was too late. It is. I'm going to have to watch them do all this. Going to have to listen to it. I'm taking my phone and some really good headphones to listen to music, but since they're going to be working inside my mouth I don't think I'll be able to drown out that scraping sound.
Well it's 10:40 now. In 13 minutes I will put a t-shirt and pants on, get in my car, and make that short drive. Really I guess I need to stop writing now because I have to change my voicemail to let people know I'm not going to mess around with them today.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Post Edited (debaser) : 2/22/2011 9:41:54 AM (GMT-7)