I haven't been on here lately, mostly because my anxiety lasted horribly for a few weeks, now I am just getting it here and there..
I need some major advice though, please help
Back in January my anxiety was so bad that I could barely leave the house, left work for a month.. etc.. It was really bad!
Then I started feeling better, then BAM!! Found out my brother has cancer (he is only 37) and they don't think there is any treatment to help him...I am very sad :-( I love my brother...
Although the anxiety is on the back-burner at the time, I still get it here and there.
So for the good news, last wednesday my boyfriend took me out, and proposed to me.. I am getting ready to plan a fall wedding here in good 'ol Michigan!! But I am so overwhelmed with everything, the anxiety is coming back.. These are very big events in my life.. (my brother sick and getting married for the first time)
So, you know what is giving me the most anxiety?? You would never guess!! Walking down the aisle at my wedding ceremony and being "center of attention" Is that crazy or what??!
Does anyone have any advice for this? I am not on any meds. I do however take xanax once in a while if I really need it. A glass or two of wine really helps my anxiety but I am not dependent on either of these for a lifetime fix.. I don't want to get on a full time medication.. I am freaking out though about the wedding.. I would love some advice I am desperate.. Any good medications out there that have low side effects and wont make me more crazy than I already am lol?? I keep reading horror stories that some people have horrible side effects and it can make you feel worse..
THANK YOU FOR READING!!!
Any help would be so greatly appreciated