Cause me so much anxiety? Ugh..
I'm having a small, family get-together tomorrow for my daughter's 4th birthday.
I'm a wreck. I'm so nervous. Why? Why can't I be like other mothers and look forward to throwing birthday parties for their kids? I'm dreading it. Something is going to go wrong, or I'm going to get embarassed about something. I just know it.
And this is just a small family gathering. Not an extended, huge bash. Ugh...I could never do a big blow-out party....
I feel bad that I just can't wait until tomorrow is over, while my daughter is so excited about it. If it wasn't for my husband, she wouldn't have B-day parties at all, I'm sure. I'm unwillingly going along for the ride.
I'm that pathetic.
I was prescribed meds a few months ago (Prozac and Xanax), but haven't taken them. Mainly because I'm too scared to.
I guess I just need some words of encouragement or something.
This will be a sleepless night, I'm sure.
Thanks for reading.