I am at point in my life where I am quite aware of why I behaved a certain way
in the past, why somethings happened. Simply put I have gad which explains
why I get anxiety out of the blue, also in social situations, with no rhyme or
reason ( in terms of my proficiency - it could be something I'm good at or
familiar with) ,overanalyze everything, and also be self conscious. Also on
a different day none of the above is that applicable to me. I also realize in
the past my anxious reactions would freak me out and trigger more anxiety.
In my life I can say I only had one p/a. I am simplifying things to not be long
winded and between listening to tapes yrs ago, reading books and self
introspection I feel I have a handle on myself - I am just inherently this way
plus combined with my experiences. The mystery is gone: this explains
everything from a pounding heartbeat as a teenager, to reacting to my
exertion while running by overbreathing and alot of other stuff too long
to mention. Add in family history. Here is my point: I think the pshlgst I am
seeing does not help at all besides venting, validation. Little in terms of
insight, she provides middle of the road obvious comments. I know venting
is good but they never mention anything proactive or new that I dont
know already - I feel like the sessions are rhetotoric. No mention of CBT,
meditation, or different approaches. I expect more not good enough to
be comfortable with this person - I expect more of dynamic things - at least
once in a while. By the way the insight on myself all came from me - never
from this therapist for the most part although validation is important. But,
enough already maybe this person is not capable of giving me any real
help- and of course I know its up to me to apply changes.
I'm in a tough spot also because I am looking for work for awhile and need
$ for my family. Also I can honestly say that this forum and you guys have
helped more than all the sessions - just knowing others have similiar
symptoms, experiences is relieving - so thanks. The therapist just seems
so passive and I dont expect alot. I am going to be quiet next time and
ask where I go at this point and perhaps stop going depending on response.
I feel like I have this good car with potential(me) and just sitting in the
driveway not going anywhere. Any advice?
Post Edited (ghosst8) : 3/12/2011 8:20:15 AM (GMT-7)