I am so glad the posts here have helped you and I will share with you that our 21 year old son died in a car crash - 20 years ago. You have my sympathy at the death of your husband. Many people will tell you time heals all and they mean well. My version is "time makes the pain less frequent but it will always break your heart when the memories are triggered" . I know you will mourn your baby forever but nobody expects you to remain alone for the rest of your life.
I have a story very similiar to SC. I was a divorced young woman with 3 small children and then I met this cool dude- Harley Davidison Biker.
His hair was a little long and he rode on a motorcycle...........thought my Dad was going to faint when he met him, but my MIL is 100% catholic and her aspirations for her oldest son did not include me. I fell head over heals with the tough dude who had a heart of gold and yes we got married - 40 years this coming June.
He was the world's best stepfather to my children which endeared him to my father for life. We also add one more boy to our family. I still wonder how I raised 4 children and went back to college.
Never stop believing in who you are and know we are only a click away so talk, vent or just be with us as your needs strike.
I cannot tell you how many times I shed tears when posting on HW. Tears can let out the pain we are trying to harness inside.
~~Kitt~~Moderator: Anxiety/Panic, Osteoarthritis, GERD/Heartburn and Heart/Cardiovascular Disease. www.healingwell.com"If you can't change the world, change your world"