Posted 4/8/2011 8:53 AM (GMT -6)
Okay, so I have this weird fear of vomiting or else I wouldn't be worried about this at all.
Last night, my roommate (nervousness from trivia) and I went to Wendy's to get a quick bite to eat. Not terribly long after eating she complained of not feeling well and went to bed early. Nauseated. She must be sick because she hasn't gone to work, and in fact hasn't even gotten out of bed as far as I know.
The food did not bother me last night. This morning I have the gastrointestinal distress that begins with the letter "d", however. Ordinarily this would not freak me out, but knowing that someone else who ate the exact same thing is ill is toying with my anxiety. Nausea is coming and going but I don't think it has anything to do with food. For now I attribute it directly to nerves.
Anyway we ate about 15 hours ago. She got sick in less than 2 hours and I have no idea what she feels like now because she's apparently asleep. I did stay up pretty late last night working, and once she went to sleep I only heard her get out of bed one time and although I wasn't "listening in" I heard nothing unusual. It's common for her to get up in the middle of the night. Additionally I was feeling fine up until 45 or 50 minutes ago. To me this doesn't suggest food poisoning. One person getting ill so quickly...the other being fine for many hours and then presenting different symptoms. My logical mind is pretty sure that I'm fine and all I need to do is wait out my "gastrointestinal distress". But my anxious mind is convinced there's something wrong with me...that I'm about to start puking my guts up and I'm only going to get worse.
I'd probably get over this without help, too, except for the fact that my nerves have already been frayed by other events, and the fact that I may have a meeting about 60 miles away at some point today. I could get the call any second, two hours from now, or not at all. But obviously I don't want to leave with "gastrointestinal distress" or worse (throwing up). The meeting is important, though.
I just have no perspective on what's going on with my body right now. Need input. I do not feel sick, really...I just have to go to the bathroom a lot. That's not exactly unusual for me though although for some reason it hasn't happened in quite a while. Usually when it occurs I don't think a lot about it. I guess because it hasn't happened in a while and because something also happened to nervousness, I'm thinking more about it than I probably should and since I have so much turmoil in my life right now those thoughts are trending negative.
All of you know how bad this health anxiety can get. Right now I'd say I have it under control, but I'm aware that I could "lose it" at any time. I don't want to let this spiral out of control. Clearly it's affecting me already.