I'm new to this forum and I'm not really sure where to start. I'm Bp2 and having a hard time with it. That aside, the way I handle stress had changed. When I was younger I self-mutilated. All I realize now to have some control in my life. Something to numb the pain I was in from all the sexual-abuse, from all the parent abandonment. All the crap a if shouldn't have to deal with. Now.....within this last year being diagnosed Bp I've been trying to limit my stress because it sends me into an episode. I CRY, I SHAKE, I feel this urge for violent outbursts I try my best to contain. Even the most mild things sometimes find my hands shaking. Why now? I don't really get it?
***Not2L8, I slightly edited your post, omitting some details. These can be a trigger for some who are also recovering from these habits. Thanks for your understanding
Post Edited By Moderator (Scaredy Cat) : 4/14/2011 11:19:15 PM (GMT-6)