So I just recently got into an argument with one of my classmates, and I realized that I do not believe in anything. I have positions on certain topics, like yes I agree with global warming and how people need to change their habits in order for the world to continue. However, I feel like changes will never happen in my life time, so I should just live and be happy-- the existentialist philosophy. The problem with me though is that I can not make meaning for myself; I have no passion or drive for anything. I am a walking corpse.
I feel like there is a chance that I can be saved from this horrible mind set (which is why I'm on this website). Maybe I am not realizing something. The thing that everyone else sees to move on with their lives that my eyes can never catch. please PLEASE show me.
I hope that in this message I am being clear about
how I feel. I was never good in English Class.
Oh, and other things that makes me feel forsaken are:
Why change the world? There will never be a solution; it's not embedded in our DNA. Think about
your utopia with all its correct and just laws and situations, where do regular people fit in? Because in utopias, you can not change people, no one is going to be self less for the rest of eternity.
If I am going to believe in a stance, shouldn't I do everything I can to change it? For example, if I became a vegetarian because I believed that animals should not be treated so ruthlessly; shouldn't I also give up every single item in the world that harms animals in a certain way? How can people say they believe in things when they are criticizing that belief with every breath they take?
My problem: I see the world in black and white, I understand that the world is gray, what do i do?
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Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 4/15/2011 6:37:02 PM (GMT-6)