I am trying really hard! Lately I've been having more anxiety and more often than ever before. All I know is that I've been more intuned to my body, having more body symptoms than ever, nightmares, I do spend most of my time trying to remain positive but I feel like a force is pushing me down with great intensity! My mind races so much its hard to think about
ANYTHING! I'm feeling that I can't control this at all! Tonight its strange chest pain not like indegestion, or heartburn. Not like muscle pain. Like electric pulses in my chest! Just strong enough to scare me but how sensitve I am to my body right now, it doesnt have to be very strong. It seems to have passed for now. I have to say, I need some help! I'm going to have to figure something out! I will continue with my positive affermations but I'm just letting you know how I'm feeling underneath those efforts. I know I shouldnt see it that way but this is undeniable fear and hypersensitivity. Its always been there only stronger and more frequent now. Sorry this is long I'm just in need and reaching out! I know I'm too sensitive to my body and sensations lead me strait to so much panic I havent been able to get it under control very well. This is the worst its ever been. Please send love, prayers, affermations. I have tried meds, addicted to klonopin
now. Therapy did me no good in the past 20 years. Books
, programs. I feel so close to the edge! I cant live this way much longer!