Hello Everyone! i'm new here and oh so thankful i found this forum. i'd like to say that i've read many posts so far and already feel as though i'm reading my own story. i look forward to reading more of your insight and wisdom...
First of all, it makes me sad to even type in the subject. My situation is i'm in a foreign country. Here because my husband works here (he's a local). We have two young children. i can't fully speak the language and barely a moment to learn because my two children keep me so busy (and exhausted). As the time passes I'm suffering through an ever growing anxiety and fear. i have no family here to support me or close friends. i have no one to relate to here as most expats living here with children are in quite different circumstances than I.
I feel as though Im slowly becoming more reclusive. i used to be a strong person. more positive, more everything. Now i'm losing my drive. I hate this growing feeling of being fearful. i have so many useless thoughts that are feeding my anxiety. And just the idea of being so alone here makes me plain depressed.
i don't know if anyone here is in the same position. i've tried to actively seek out others who are like minded and in the same circumstances. But to no avail. Now i'm feeling alienated and without any remnants of my former self. How can i keep myself sane? i don't want to feel as though this time in my life is moving on, as i regress as a person.
my husband doesn't understand what i'm going through entirely. in fact he gets quite annoyed and irritated when i bring up my worries. i don't want my fear and anxiety to affect my children.
Post Edited (Mochaa) : 7/14/2011 2:20:00 AM (GMT-6)