My name is Carol. I am 19.
I feel like i am dreaming. Nothing feels real. I suffer from gad, ocd, and major depression. I have been feeling likei am in a dream for the past 2 months. I am so scared that i am losing my mind or that one day i am going to snap and go crazy. I am also scared that i won't know what feeling better feels like or when i start thinking i am feeling better i'm actually going insane because insane people don't know that they are that way. My memory is horrible. Time goes by so fast. Things that happened an hour ago feel like they happened 5 hours ago.I am constantly thinking that i am not really here and that nothing is ever going to be normal again. When i look in the mirror i don't recognize myself. I also have been feeling empty. I know i love my family and my boyfriend but it's hard to feel that love. I cry a lot. Everything thing seems fuzzy and confusing. I take zoloft, seroquel xr, and klonopin. I have been on those meds for a little over a month. Before that i was on lexapro. My doctors try to tell me that i am here and that i am not losing my mind it is just hard to believe them. Does anyone understand what i am going through?