Just wanted to check in and update you guys a little bit. My current mood/anxiety is a little bit better. Although I don't really feel like myself yet still, I am in a much better way since my major panic attack at work on Friday. I got through yesterday as well, although I did have to call out sick because of still having really bad symptoms, dry heaves, fealings of DP/DR. Really wild stuff. But I found out something last night, something I haven't really felt in awhile. I actually had a good night just sitting home and having dinner/talking with my family. Through all these anxiety problems lately I felt as if I wasn't close and didn't know anybody. Memories and feelings started coming back to my parents and brothers and it felt pretty awesome (sorry to get so darn soft on you guys lol). But anyway, sleep is still hard to come by though.
I see my old therapist on Monday and was wondering if this is something I should bring to his attention? As I've learned over these past 2 years, according to everyone who knows me, they swear that I am in no way doing anything outlandish or crazy. So...although I think I am it just seems to be my perception of things that's messed up. Which is where this question comes from I guess. I am getting about 5-6 hours a night of sleep now. I really can't even fall asleep until about 130-2 am even though I make sure to get into bed and try and fall asleep at around 10 pm. I just sit up and my head spins round and round with thoughts of everything that happened that day, or everything that could happen the next day, and everything that I'm feeling, etc. Anyways, do you guys think that this is something that is worth bringing up to my doc on Monday or is 5-6 hours normal? I do want to add that although it is 5-6 hours I normally have it broken up where I'll wake every 2-3 hours.
One more thing to add though, I follow Nickelback on facebook and saw one of their posts today on there and I thought it really helped me to see this picture.
Guess it's alright to hit some rough patches every now and then eh? I just don't understand why it's been 2 years of this, but maybe i'm just in the middle of that success line on the 2nd one and hopefully coming out of it. I think these last 2 days off from work (although embarrassing the way it happened) were good for me. Made me realized I was pushing too hard with school and work and I've been trying to pull back the reigns a little bit. Just let things happen instead of pushing and pushing. I'm not sure if this is a good outlook long term, but since last night this outlook has helped out my current mood A LOT.