I am trying to understand this better, are you saying that someone is pushing you toward a certain spiritual belief? Like members of your family or church?
I am sorry I can't offer more help on this, but I am afraid that I don't understand the problem as well as I should before I can relate and make any suggestions.
Let us know more if you can.
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