I can relate to all of you. Up until 3 weeks ago I never thought twice about
health anxiety, and I can attribute that to my mom working in a hospital and getting my tests, and results instantly for anything funny, I since have my own insurance, but these last few weeks have been hell and its so difficult. It all started with what I thought was a swollen lymph node in my groin. It was hard, immobile and about
1.5 inches in diameter. I really didn't think anything about
it made an appointment with my doctor. Of course I'm curious and go on google and scare the living crap out of myself and start getting horrible anxiety. I go to the doctor and by this time it shrank to about
the size of an almond. He said, it feels like a cyst that might be infected, gives me labs to do and a chest xray. I'm 26 years old and smoked for 10 years. I start getting all messed up in the head. Tuesday night Nov 20 I get really drunk and wake up in the middle of the night covered in sweat, bed sheets all soaked, I thought I had soiled myself. Of course I go back online and swollen lymph node night sweat I was certain I had lymphoma. So I start going nuts, I do my blood work and chest xray the wednesday before thanks giving and that 5 days of waiting till monday was complete torture. I thought I had lung cancer, Hodgkins disease, every Non Hodgkins known to man. I'm a complete wreck. Monday after thanks giving comes around my Blood work is completely normal even the CBC differential chest xray was clear, Two of my liver enzymes are elevated. ALT and AST. Since Im a pretty avid drunk I contributed it to that, but I was still super nauseated, couldn't eat, loss of appetite, fatigue, etc. My doctor is very patient with me and orders a CT scan with contrast. Of course just the waiting for insurance to clear makes me go even more nutts. It is taking forever and my anxiety is getting even worse. So for 2 weeks I was on an anxiety bender that was killing me, I was super ill couldnt eat etc. I end up having a full blown anxiety attack at work and had to be taken to the ER. They give me a CT scan there and blood work and everything comes out normal, no swollen lymph nodes etc. I just had the cyst excised on friday and the doctor said it definitely wasnt a lymph node. I am finally starting to feel better, however I still don't feel completely right in the head.
I turned on some sort of switch that Ill probably have to live with forever now. This is a horrible feeling, does anyone have any tricks to get out of my head. this whole process has made me super depressed. I HATE THIS!!!!
Post Edited (AlexG86) : 12/9/2012 3:31:41 PM (GMT-7)