Welcome to the forum D_a_p.
First of all, I am sorry to hear of your wife's test results. Huntington's is a disease that has affected our family as well. My mother's cousin's husband and two children are positive carriers of the gene, and it is a devatating thing to find out that you will eventually develop the disease sometime in the future. However, the husband is in his late 60's, and is so far without symptoms, so there is always hope of many healthy years to come.
Also keep in mind that everyday, research is being done on many illnesses, and it is quite possible that there could be a cure/treatment for this in the near future. For example, just a few decades ago, diabetes was fatal, and now with the development of insulin injections, people are now living with this disease well into old age!
It might be helpful for you both to see a therapist who can help you deal with the anxiety and other emotions that go along with this (pre) diagnoses. Many people with chronic health conditions, or potential ones can benefit from some form of therapy and support. I would ask for a referral from her doctor. There may even be a support group for people and family members dealing with Huntington's.
As far as your feelings of helplessness about
life in general...I would again recommend consulting with your doctor, and lay it all out on the line. Anxiety and depression are treatable, even when you are in the abyss and it doesn't seem like there is hope...there really is. Medication and /or therapy are options that you should actively look into. Many peoples live with unecessary A/D when there is treatment available. Please consider sharing this with your doctor and allow him/her to guide you toward recovery.
Keep posting here with us. We understand much of what you are going through. We are here to support you and help as much as we can. We also have a Resource Guide that you may want to take a look at. It has links to self-help type coping mechanisms that may get you started in the right direction.
I wish you and your wife the best, and hope that you will post here with us whenever you are in need.
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"It is when we are most lost that we sometimes find our truest friends"
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Post Edited (Scaredy Cat) : 2/7/2012 1:06:45 PM (GMT-7)