I'm at one of the lowest points in my life right now. My anxiety is at it's worst, panic, agoraphobia, depression, nausea which I'm not sure if it's caused from anxiety or possibly acid reflux. The acid reflux is worse too. I've had to go off coffee and alcohol completely right now and don't know if I'll ever be able to enjoy those again. Going off coffee tends to make me very depressed. I'm too agoraphobic to see my therapist right now-besides, wasn't helping that much anyway. I don't have a lot of support. My husband just wants me to start 'doing' something instead talking about it all the time, so I don't feel I have anyone to talk to. I've recently felt very rejected by a friend(I guess we're not really good friends anymore). I get rejection from my family(I have a different faith than they and that seems to segregate us). I take a medication that I believe has made my dopamine levels so low, I can't do anything, can't clean my house or barely get off the couch-which in turn gives me horrible back aches.
So I'm wondering about going on an anti-depressant. I've talked to many people and it's helped them a lot. But I'm super afraid of the side-effects. I've tried one before and had terrible nausea, and I'm phobic of throwing up. I just don't know if it's worth it. I have tons of books and information on anxiety and depression. Maybe I just need to give the natural way a 'real' try.
I have a doctor's appt. mon. morning and thinking of cancelling. I don't know if I can get there anyway due to my agoraphobia. I'm also taking xanax everyday. I've built up a tolerance to it so need more for it to be effective which also scares me.
I just don't know the right course to take right now.